All The Pain and All The Memories

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Chapter Playlist: Love the way you Lie Ptiii

It was an overwhelming night for me, well, everyone!
Kevin was taken to the hospital too, and has been arrested.
I am a wreck, and I won't allow myself to forgive myself for what I did to Peter...Oh God. Peter.
Peter was taken from me immediately and into caring hands. I have been pacing this waiting room since I fucking drove here, and no word has come.
I am FREAKING the fuck out! What if I killed him? How would I be able to forgive myself? What if...he doesn't want to see me anymore?
"WHERE IS MY BOY!?" I hear a woman yell at the attendant.
"Mrs, your going to have to take a seat, we'll alert you when he's ready."
"No! GODDAMMIT I WANT MY SON!" She screams.
Her sons become muffled into something and I just had one guess as to who it was.
"Mrs. Codat!" I yell.
I hear heels clicking and finally see her crumbling body in front of me.
"Selena!" She cries out as she runs and brings me in for a hug.
It all hit me then, the pain of the situation, the emotions, and the numbness is subsided. All the pain consuming every cell, and the realization that he could die. It'd all be my fault, IT IS all my fault.
"Mrs. Codat." A woman says behind us.
"Yes?" She lets me go as I sit down and try to breathe.
"He's awake, you can see him."
She turns back to me and holds out her hand.
My mind is whirling with all sorts of thoughts, and I can't Breathe. I think I may faint.
"I...I can't...I...have to go."
I get up off the seat and run, pretty horridly, out the hospital doors. I can't be here, I shouldn't be here, and I need to breathe.
"Selena!" I hear someone shout out a nearby window.
I turn around immediately recognizing the voice and I couldn't move when our eyes connected.
Here's Peter out the window of his hospital room and worried about me.
"Pe...Pete...Peter."
It was all coming out in breaths and I couldn't process this anymore. Queasiness became me and I slowly felt like I was drifting.
"Oh Shit." Peter says.
He comes crawling out the window and running sideways to me, groaning. I wait for myself to hit the pavement, but that never happens.
Peter catches me and His eyes were the last thing my eyes saw and connected with.
"Selena, It's okay...It's okay..."
"It's Okay...It's okay..." His voice echoes as my mind goes black and blank.
"Miss...Miss..."
"JANE...JANE!"
"Hello...pretty...boy..."
"PETER!"
All of it is coming back to me, all the pain, all the memories that had been kept at bay, and now I realize why.
In the moment that I want and should leave Peter, the memories are reminding me as to why I need him. He erases them from me, not permanently, but for as long as I'm with him.
"PETER! RUN!"

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