Violence (Sequel to Have Faith In Me)

23: Sorry

I turned my phone on eventually and sifted through my messages. I saw one from my new group of friends. There was a Facebook chat that I had been added into.

I read through the previous messages and got to the top of the conversation. I took a screenshot of the first message so that I had all of the details.

I had been invited to a party on Friday night. I knew I had nothing on tomorrow night so I just messaged the group saying that I could go. I watched as there was an influx of messages back channeling and celebrating the fact that I could go, which is what everyone seemed to do when someone said that they could go. I smiled and checked who was going. Then I noticed that Zack wasn't there on the chat.

Jessica sent me a private message saying that Zack wasn't available, so I guess that was that. I guess he was just busy.

I replied with a civil 'thank you' and closed down the app.

I didn't want to be friends with Jessica, with me she definitely acted bipolar. But I wasn't one to judge. I wouldn't get close to her and I wouldn't let her have the opportunity to hurt me again, I promised myself. She tore me apart when Gemma died. I wouldn't let her get me that vulnerable again. She was bad news.

Zack walked straight in my house and shouted for me.

When I didn't answer he made his way up to my room, and Rose trailed behind.

I smiled sheepishly at both of them and they raised their eyebrows with question. I hadn't spoken to them about what happened with me and school.

"Sit down guys."

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"So you're saying, you stayed back from tour to go to school, and now you're just going to do your schoolwork from home?" Zack asked doubtfully.

I nodded. "I'll be in a stable location where I'm comfortable. I won't be moving all the time and I can work at my own pace. The school's still monitoring me though. I can go in to talk to the teacher's whenever I need help or guidance." I explained further.

Rose nodded. "I think that'll suit you just fine."

I smiled at her gratefully. "Thank you for understanding."

"Of course, we're still going to hang out regardless though!" Zack reminded me, kind of hopefully.

I chuckled and nodded, blushing slightly as he wrapped his arm around me and gave me a side hug. Although I couldn't help but remember when I kept doing that to Ashton when he was just here, and him doing it to me also.

My phone started to buzz and I left Rose and Zack to make small talk whilst I went into another room, my eyes were glued to my phone.

It was Luke.

And I missed him a lot. I felt like a real jerk for not hearing him out.

I opened up the messages, and I hardly even read through his apologies thoroughly. I just typed one word. A word that would let him know that I missed him, and that I felt awful for being so dismissive with him.

'Sorry'

Within seconds, my phone screen had changing according to an incoming call.

I hesitated, my eyes widening with realisation of what I had done.

Was I ready to speak to him? Was I ready to hear about how foolish I had been to not even bother hearing him out after his harsh words?

I didn't let my thought process continue, I engaged the call.

And it was dead silent on the end of the phone. There was just nervous breathing, on both ends of the line.

We both spoke at the same time, our voices cracking as we pronounce each other's names.

I bit my lip, wanting him to go on, to talk first. It went silent again on his end too, I imagine him doing the exact same thing, with his lip ring in between his teeth.

I stayed silent for too long, it seemed.

"I miss you." He croaked.

"D-do you hate me?" I whispered, mostly full of anxiety.

"Wh," he coughed, clearing his throat, "what? I should be asking you that question, not the other way around." He sighed sadly.

"But, I didn't hear you out."

"What I said was out of line."

"You needed to concentrate on what's going on with your girlfriend right now, it seems like a tough time."

"I was speaking out of blindness and haste, I didn't mean a word of it. My mind was somewhere else and I needed to sort that out before I brought her into your life. I can't express-"

"Luke, you're babbling and you sound kinda posh." I cut him off, smiling slightly.

I heard him snicker on the other end and I started to laugh. We had forgiven each other, for the tension was too much for us to handle. We wanted to be ourselves again, and not hold onto each other's mistakes.

"I can't help it. I get dragged all around the world and our main security guy is a Brit. 'Course I'm gonna start talkin' like a tosser!" He joked. He always takes the piss out of Matt, their main security guard.

I started to laugh at my brother.

My brother, who I loved so so much.

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idk i hated the fact that they werent getting along so i wanted them to make up fight me

also i figured that i cba to stick to a schedule to update, so im just going to update as and when i feel like it

sorry this was short, shitty and a filler, had to take my mind off of boys, hence the terrible writing

i wanna cry because there are these three guys who like me right, but i dont think i can reciprocate feelings for any of them and i feel so shitty about myself and feel like a terrible person, idek why they like me because im just some teenage trash whos not even pretty, hates herself, loves music and would rather spend time with her dog than people