Better Days (Completed)

- I'm Sorry, Let Me Make It Up To You..

Iyasia and Gizelle in MM (Iyasia on the left, Gizelle on the right)

August
*The next day*

Last night had me all types of fucked up man. I pictured my life a lot of ways but possibly having AIDS wasn't one of them. I wouldn't say I was in love with Toya but I was in a deep like with her I guess. I never stepped out on her not once. She not only fucked around on me but she fucked around on me with a sick nigga and continued to fuck around after she knew. I'm feeling like I really can't trust none of these females and that's what's also fucking me up. My trust in Asia is wavering and she don't deserve that she ain't never did shit to me. Now I know she must feel some type of way by the way she kissed me last night but how I'm feeling right now I don't even wanna go there with her. My mind all over the place.

"August you awake?" Asia asked softly as she rolled over facing me.

Last night after she kissed me we sat on the couch and just cried together. She ended up falling asleep and I carried her to her room and laid her down. I slid in bed next to her and drowned myself in my thoughts. I'd yet to fall asleep.

"Yeah, I'm up." I said while getting out the bed and walking to the bathroom to pee.

"What do you plan on doing today?"

"Goin to da clinic to see if I'm dyin and then I might stop by work dependin on how I'm feelin." I stepped out the bathroom and she had a death stare on her face. Coincidence huh?

"What?" I asked her raising my eyebrow.

"Don't talk like that August, it's not for sure that you have anything. You told me last night you guys used condoms most of the time." She said sounding confident.

I grabbed my phone and phone charger. "If you really believed dat you wouldn't have been cryin last night." I said without looking at her and walking out of the room.

She quickly changed the subject seeing as she was getting no where with that. "You said you're going to work? You never told me what you do." She said following behind me.

"I own a women's and girls clothin sto." I said simply.

She smiled. "Why a women's clothing store?"

"Cause I don't want a bunch'a niggas in my face all day. Anymo' questions?" I snapped at her.

"Who the fuck pissed in your Cheerios August? I've done nothing but be here for you." She said getting annoyed.

"I ain't ask you to." I said blandly.

She closed her eyes for a minute. "What the fuck happened over night? Am I missing something? One minute it's "Asia I gotchu, you'll never have to go through it alone again." and the next it's this shit. I didn't fucking ask you to do anything you ever did for me. I didn't ask you for your friendship I never asked you for shit! So you know what? To cut all this shit short just go August! You aren't the first to switch up and you won't be the last." She said growing angrier with me.

"Brother August!" Vic yelled coming out of her room. Asia snapped her head in Vics direction and yelled. "Go get ready for school Victoria! Bye!"

Honestly I know I'm wrong for how I'm treating Asia but I feel how I feel and I feel like all these females is grimey as fuck man.

I grabbed my keys and looked at Asia one more time before I walked out the door. I guess it is what it is.

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"Mr. Alsina ?" The doctor said coming back into the room.

I was nervous about this. I ain't never been in no situation like this before and it was all because my head was too far up my ass bout a broad. I kept thinking about what I would do if I had it. How people would look at me different, how careful I'd have to be all the time, and ultimately how long I had until this shit killed me off.