She said the air is so clean. (Matty Healy fanfic)

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We lay there on his bed together for what seems like forever. Just laying, no words.

"Tell me about you." He says breaking the silence that hung over us.

"My parents hate me, I have 3 friends one of which is my boss, my last relationship ended because of a rockstar, and I used to run everyday but my rockstar lover has got me hooked on cigarettes again so i can barely make it up a flight of steps without losing breath." I giggle as Matty smiles into my skin. "Tell me about you."

"Well I rarely speak to my dad, I feel really responsible for my little brother, I slightly despise my fame, I'm a fucking rockstar, and I recently broke it off with a girl that was toxic, but I've now found my medicine." He smiles shyly. "Don't blame cigarettes on me, you gladly took them." He laughs.

Im his medicine? Is he even referring to me?

"What happened with her, um, your ex?" I ask while playing with the blanket a bit.

He stopped for a moment looked fown and began speaking.

"She decided to start knocking around with others, I thought I loved her. I think I only just loved the idea of her, what we could've been and what we once were. She kept creeping into my life, making me a different person, disconnected and emotionless. She got me started on blow, and pills. But with you I don't need anything, you make me euphoric without substance, you make my best highs look like shit. You're my fucking opiate J. Im so happy I sat in that seat, I'm so happy you didn't turn me away when I was an ass. Please don't go anywhere ever, id be lost."

He looked up. Tears were falling down his beautiful face. I lightly wipe the tears and put my hands on the sides of his face.

"Im not going anywhere." I mumbled then pulled him into a kiss, which was so emotion filled and deep. He pulled away and wrapped his arms around me, pulling my body to his and burying his face in my neck. We stayed like this for a while.

"You ready to go back out there?" He asks then kisses my head and sits up.

"Yeah, we can try this again. Your friends are complete assess, just to let you know."  I giggle sitting up behind him.

He giggles quietly and kisses my cheek.

"You're beautiful." He smiles.

"Thank you Healy, you ain't to bad yourself." I smile back and kiss his cheek.

"Im sorry for all of this." He says waving his hands all about.

"I know. But as I said im not going anywhere."

"Thank you."

"You know it babe." I giggle and stand up and head to the door hand in hand with this man that is a piece if art.

He will be the death me.

Or maybe this is only the beginning.