She said the air is so clean. (Matty Healy fanfic)

21

We pull up to hos apartment building after we eat.

"You coming in?" He asks as he unbuckles

"Only for a few, Ive got to get everything sorted out with my brothers." I smile and get out.

When we walk into his apartment Adam and George are sitting in the living room playing fifa. I look at the coffee table and catch a glimpse of pill bottles, a white substance, beer bottles and weed.

Matty walks to the couch and sits motioning me to sit on his lap. Which I do.

"Hey guys." Adam says then sips his beer.

"Want one?" George says motioning to the beer.

"Yes for me, no for her she has to drive home." Matty says .

"Your not staying?" Adam asks returning his focus to the game.

"Not tonight." I chuckle.

"Damn. I was hoping for a pillow fort." George laughs.

"You wouldn't want to be in there with us." Matty laughs and kisses my cheek. He lifts me off his lap and places my body next to his. He reaches for a beer.

"You have anymore?" Matty asks Georg pointing to the lines of coke on the table.

"Yeah its over here." George says throwing Matty a bag filled with white powder.

"Want some?" He asks me, pouring it onto the table then reaching for the razor blade from the table.

"What is it?" I ask. Curiously.

"Blow." Adam replies.

"Oh. Yeah sure." I say my hands get sweaty. Last time I snorted it I almost died.

Matty makes a line and snorts it through a dollar bill he had, then hands it to me.

"You don't have to." He said then rubbed my back.

"I know, but I want to." I let out a small giggle and lean down. It feels so natural. I immediately feel lighter. I sniffle a few times and throw my head back.

Matty pulls me onto his lap and kisses me. I kiss back as deeply as I can. Our tongues intertwined. I move down and start sucking his neck, his hands hold my hips.

"You guys going to do that right here?" George laughs. "Ill join."

I twist my head around and throw a pillow at George. Matty giggles and flicks George off.

"In your dreams." I say and lean back, still straddling Matty . "You look funny upside down Hann." I giggle uncontrollably.

"You look funnier." He says and pokes my nose.

"Don't touch me!" I laugh.

Matty pulls me back up so I'm facing him.

"You are cute." He laughs and sticks his tongue out, which I grab with my lips and kiss him again.

"I almost died last time I did this you know." I say sweetly and lick the tip of his nose.

"Why didn't you tell me that before?" He whispered into my ear.

"Never came up." I whisper back.

"Well before I offered, you could've mentioned." He says with a scowl.

"Im fine. I just cant have too much." I giggle, then stand up walking to his bedroom. Before I get through the door I peel my top off and turn around and motion for him to follow.

George gets up and starts walking to me giggling the whole time. Matty pushes George out of the way and picks me up making me wrap my legs around him.

"Better luck next time!" I giggle.

"Nice bra by the way." He laughs back with a defeated tone.

Matty lays me on the bed and just lays next to me resting his head on my chest.

"What is your family like?" He asks sweetly tracing the tattoos on my hips.

"My dad and mom fight constantly, they kicked me out after they found out about the drugs, and the sex and what not. My brother Michael started me with smoking, cigarettes, weed, and even started me with alcohol,blow, shrooms, acid, and pills. Ellis my other brother followed Michael just as I did but he never went as far, or got caught by my parents. Me and Michael got kicked out at a round the same time, so me and him got an apartment together. So I lived with him until I was 20, then I moved here."

"Why don't you speak with your parents? Its been a while since everything." He asks.

"Well I haven't completely ignored them, I speak to them rarely. When they kicked me out they called me a useless drug addict slut. So I tried to stay away from them."

"This is the first time I've seen you do anything but smoke weed so I doubt you're an addict."

"I was until I almost died from an overdose when I was 19. My boyfriend at the time let me have way too much." I sigh as tears begin flowing.

He hugs me tightly.

"I rarely speak to my dad. I feel like my brother despises me for leaving. My mum only ever smiled on her tele show. And before you I was only happy when my head was filled with dope. I don't speak to any of them as much as I should and I feel like shit for it." He says like he's been preparing that for a lifetime.

I hug him back tightly. Both of us stay silent, our tears mingling.

"Ill call my parents in the morning as long as you call your dad, brother, and mom."

"Deal." He smiles and kisses me. "Stay the night tonight? We can take a late flight tomorrow if you still want to go."

"Alright." I smile. "George!" I shout and he comes rushing into the room.

"What?" He looks at us with a startled look. "Im surprised you two are dressed. I mean you without a shirt doesn't disappoint, but i was expecting more." He laughs.

"Not funny mate." Matty says.

"Awe, you two were crying together. How romantic." He giggles.

"J why did you call him in?" Matty asks.

"I wanted him to find all of the blankets and pillows. I want to make a fucking fort." We all laugh and Matty kisses me.

"Of course madam. Me and Hann will get right on it." George laughs and takes a bow.

"Really love?"

I nod and sit up. "Give me some clothes?"

He gets up and throws a shirt with his band name on it and boxers. I throw it on and do a spin.

"My shirt looks so good, when it's just hanging off your back." He grins and kisses me.

"Matthew! Did you just quote your own song." I say in mock disbelief.

He smiles and kisses me.

"Shhhh. Dont tell anyone." He smiles.

"I love you. Don't you mind?"

"Real funny." He laughs and smacks my but. "Keep your voice down."

"Stop looking at my friends." I sing quietly back.

"Go out, they can hear exactly what you say." He sings.

"Drink fall spew." Adam sings softly.

"Telephone you." George adds.

"If you're alone in your room whats that boy doing?" Matty laughs and slips his arm around me.

"Heads cars bending, heads cars bending." We all sing loudly in unison and giggle like children.