Cracks In Our Hearts [BWWM]

22.Pill And Potions

Mason pulled me into the house and watched me pace around. I didn't know what to do, every part of me wanted to explode and other parts wanted to hide.

"Why?" I said crying.

I looked at Mason and his face told me everything.

"I know that's just how he is." I yelled to him.

He looked down at the ground not know what to say. I walked to my room grabbing all of my things. I tossed them into a bag and walked to David's room. The room I was about to be killed in a few hours ago because of him. I grabbed anything that was mine in it and walked out.

"Let's go." I said walking to Mason.

"Are you sure you want to leave?" He asked softly.

"Yes." I said firmly.

I was done with this shit, I'm not going to be that broken hearted girl over him. The door opened and Jessica's frown deepened. She saw what happened and she knew what I was doing. I handed Mason a bag and we walked out. David was gone and so where the cop cars.

Rowan and Conner looked at me sadly.

"Where did he go?" I asked them.

"He told the cops Ava didn't do anything and they let her go. Then they walked off together." Conner said.

I walked to the car getting in and the others did the same as Logan pulled up. He ran to the car looking at me.

"I had to close the store, I'm sorry I wasn't here. Wait, what's happening?" He looked at my bags.

"You guys can go, I'll explain to him." Mason said closing the door for Jessica.

Logan looked around confused and Mason pulled him to the house. Rowan pulled off and I sat looking out the window. Jessica softly rubbed my back  pulling me into a hug. I let her do whatever not caring right now.

After a while we pulled up to the house and Conner carried my stuff in. I walked in and went to the kitchen. I grabbed the closest alcohol and looked at it. It was gin and I opened it, then grabbed a wine glass.

"Want to talk?" Jessica asked.

"No." I said pour a tall glass.

"Your just going to get drunk?" Conner asked.

"Yes." I drank from it and the burn felt perfect right now.

I took another big drink and another and went to refill it. I looked up to see the three of them still watching.

"Your can't drink problems away." Conner said.

"Will I can try." I yelled to him taking a drink.

"That's what I'm always doing these days fucking trying."I said taking another drink.

I looked at the empty glass and my vision started to blur. I grabbed the bottle and drank from it.

"Your going to kill yourself, your losing yourself right now." Jessica said.

"Yeah, you'll know all about losing yourself right Jess. Your the first person to get lost, just fuck who loves you over a guy right. You just dropped me like a old penny for a guy right!" I yelled at her.

"I'm not talking to you like this." She threw up her hands and walked away.

"Good, walk away and leave me again. I wouldn't expect anything else from you." I yelled out but she was gone.

I drank more of the bottle as Conner and Rowan walked into the living room. I heard a T.V come on and I just kept drinking. I put the bottle to my lips and it was gone. I moved my feet but I stumbled and grabbed the table.

The door opened and Mason walked in yelling. David appeared trying to push Mason.

"Mason move, Logan let me go!" He yelled out.

Rowan and Conner moved to the door helping Mason hold him still.

They yelled at each other and I watched. I knew it was the gin because this was funny. I started to laugh louder and harder looking at David fight them. They all looked at me and David moved in some.

"Hershey, I can explain what happened." David yelled.

"You don't have to." I said looking at a bottle of rum on top of the counter.

I stumbled to it and grabbed it pulling it open. I put it to my lips and took a smooth drink from it.

"You can't just leave!" David yelled to me.

I put the bottle down and laughed again.

"The fucking cute you said that, really I can't leave you. I am leaving you, you think you can tongue fuck another girls mouth in front of me." I said laughing again.

"That's not what happened." He said.

"Really it's not, you guys can let him go." I took another drink from the bottle as he walked to me.

"Hershey."

"No my names Leanna unless your talking to Logan."

Logan winkled his eye brows looking around.

"Why would he call me Hershey?" He said confused.

"Let me explain." David begged.

"You don't have to, I just told you that."

"I want to, I don't want to lose you." He touched my arm softly.

"David let me explain something to you know while I'm drunk. Take your ring, take your last name, take your explanation and fuck off. I'm nobody's second and I'm not going to be cheated on by you or anyone. I almost died to day for you and you kissed your rapist." I grabbed the bottle and walked away.

I stumbled to the living room and Mason help me to the next room. I pulled from him and sat down.

"What happened to my glass?" I said looking around.

David handed me my glass and I took it from him.

"Leanna I love you." David said to me.

I held his eye contact so he could understand my words. I stood and grabbed both of his hands making sure he could hear me.

"I don't care, I don't love you, I don't want you. Do you understand me?" I said slowly.

Tears fell from his eyes and he turn looking at the others. They didn't move but I sat back down grabbing the remote and my bottle. I looked at to pink pills on the table and grabbed them.

"That's X." Conner said.

"Good." I said taking them both.

"Leanna!" Rowan yelled and I looked at him.

"You need to stop." He said.

I stood pushing David out of my way and walking to him.

"That tone is so sexy, why don't me and you make a mistake to night." I said rubbing his chest.

He just looked down at me and I winked at him. A hand grabbed my wrist tight and pulled me out side. I pulled away and tried for the house.

"Fucking stop." David yelled to me.

I looked at him but I was blacking out and the liquor was flowing in me. The pills started to kick in and I smiled at him.

"Why don't you just go, I forgot you where here. I think tonight I'm going to try to fuck Rowan. He's cute as hell." I grabbed the door nob but he stopped me.

"No your coming with me." He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.

"Oh yeah, I guess we can fuck again." I said laughing.

He tossed me into Masons car and ran to the house. All I could think was I wanted to dance. He came back with keys and got in. Pulling off into the darkness.