Cracks In Our Hearts [BWWM]

6.Tell Me About It

I walked down the hall and stopped in the kitchen. Logan was sitting in the kitchen.

"What's up Anna?" He said putting down his phone.

"Hey." I said walking to him.

"We still have about two hours before the party. Sit down talk to your old friend Logan." He patted the table.

I walked to him and slid on to the metal table. He just looked at me waiting for me to talk. I noticed his eyes only stayed on my face. He never once seem to notice my body.

"Is David going to be okay?" I asked.

"I had a strange feeling you where going to ask about him. Maybe it's because you came out of his room or because you just like." He said smiling.

"I like him because he's my friend." I said looking down.

"Yeah, but he'll be okay. We just need to help him." He said walking to the fridge and grabbed a beer.

I looked up when a person walked in. It was Mason and Jessica leaving the bathroom. They both had robes on and where wet.

"Hey babe." Jessica said walking to me.

She hugged me and I returned it, with a smile. She walked to Logan and he handed her a bottle of water. He handed me a beer and did the same for Mason. They all sat around the table quietly drinking.

"What's wrong with David?" I asked louder then I wanted.

All of them looked at me then at each other.

"Did you talk to him?" Mason asked.

"I tried, but he didn't much. Well he didn't say anything." I looked at him.

"You guys can tell her." David said walking into the room and to the fridge.

"Maybe you should tell her." Jessica said.

He grabbed a beer and a pint of whiskey and started back down the hall.

"I don't feel like talking." Was all he said before going into his room.

"Well then I'll start, David kinda lived with me most of high school. I never really asked why because he was a brother to me and my mum always really like him to. He just never seemed to want to go home and then he started fucking his way throw the school." Logan said sipping his beer.

"After high school he had Ava around making him even crazier. They fight then fuck and it was always that way. Back before Jess and I got pregnant he told us that his aunt and cousin would rape him. That's why he is the way he is now and back then." Mason said taking a big drink of his beer.

Jessica reached over and grabbed his hand rubbing her thumb on the back.

"We're not sure what to do, but someone need to be with him. At all times during this visit, because we don't know what he would do or if they would try it again." Jessica said.

I felt my heart was cracking for him, braking into. Tears stung my eyes and I looked down so they couldn't see.

"Leanna I know how much that hit because I didn't forget what happened. I think you should go talk to him because what happened to him and you are almost the same thing. People don't feel like it rape when it still is." Jessica continued.

I hopped down from the table and dragged my feet to the hallway.

"You guys have known him long shouldn't you guys talk to him?" I asked looking back.

"Yeah we will but he seemed fond of you in a different way. I'm sure he would be happy that you cared to talk to him." Mason said.

I nodded to them and walked to his bedroom door. I softly knocked on the door and he I heard a mumble I walked in. He was sitting on the bed drinking his beer and whiskey.

"What came to give me a good talking to? I know it's not my fault, I need to forgive them and all that bullshit right." I took a big drink of whiskey and looked at me.

I closed the door and leaned against the wall opposite of him. I watched as he took gulp after gulp of his drink. I know how he feels, the feeling of wanting to wash things away. To just forget for as moment and deal with it later.

"When I was a kid about 9 or 10 cant remember, I was in the orphanage with Jess. Jess and I where room mates and we loved each other back then. During school we had a teach named Mr.Luca and his wife Ms.Luca. I loved both of them and they loved me to. They where almost my parents. After I was a teenage Mr.Luca alway took me to his office. He never said anything to me just made me face the wall of about 20 minutes and told me to leave." I said looking at him.

He turned his full attention to me and put his bottle down.

"I didn't know why he did it but he always did. After a month or so kept doing it and Ms.Luca stopped talking to me. When she did it would be stuff like I hate you or I wish you where dead. They official adopted me and I was happy hoping things would go back to the way it was. It only got worst Mr.Luca told me to come to his room ever night. I didn't understand what he was doing then but he was giving oral sex." I said with my voice cracking.

I closed my eyes trying to erase the picture in my head. I looked at David who was now looking at the ground.

"I felt dirt and I felt wrong but I didn't understand it. It felt wrong but it felt good to." I ended.

"Did you ever tell anyone?" David asked.

I walked over to him and sat next to him. I took a deep breath and looked at his brown eyes. I'm surprised how much comfort they gave me.

"Yeah I did but Ms.Luca said I was a slut and if I told anyone the world would know I was a whore. She alway called me a slut or whore. I told Jessica and she called the police but Mr.Luca was loved by everyone and they didn't believe her. After they left the kick her out making her homeless and they kept her away. I saw her when we got to high school and started stealing." I said.

I laid back on the bed and looked a the ceiling.

"I didn't understand that feeling then, when he did oral on me. I hated the filling and the only other time I felt it again was earlier in the car with you." I rubbed my hand over my face.

"Was it still bad with me?" He asked sadly.

"No, it felt right and only right." I said.

I sat up and moved off the bed, I looked at him but his face was to the ground.

"So no I'm not telling you to forgive anyone for anything. I never did." I walked out the as he looked up at me.