Day 34
Dear diary,
Woop nothing really change though.. I'm still depressed and obssessed.
I just have this appointment with Marie where she asked me about some psychological question to test my depression. We talked about my childhood with Louis and how we met. Oh those sweet,fun moments.
How Harry met Louis..
I was playing in a park when I got bullied by the cool kids from my school. They were shouting at me and I was tripped by them. I was sobbing all throughout but then a kid started to pick me up and brought me to the clinic. Little did I know,my knee was bleeding and it was painful when they're curing it. This kid held my hand and tried to comfort me. Since that day,we became best of friends. We hang out every after school,we share thoughts and everything,we have sleep overs,and we help each other in everything. And that's when I knew that I have this weird feeling about this kid. At first it really felt weird because I'm a boy and I am in fact straight but when everytime I look at his eyes, I felt something special about him..like I'm falling inlove him.
Growing up with him..
It's never been easy growing up with him. Because I was jealous everytime he shares that he has a crush with some girl at his school. And I'm not really good at hiding my emotions,so everytime he talks about girls, I pretend that I'm listening but in fact I'm really not. But hey, it is really fun too! Like wherever he goes, he never forgets me to join him. Oh I remember when I was 8 (and he was 10),he asked me to join his trip in Disneyland, he even payed the plane ticket for me just to join him! We rode this roller coaster and some extreme rides which is really really fun! Oh how I really wish that were still happy like those times..
All the love, H.x
