Day 39
Dear diary,
Wey hey geez 39 days of depression! Like hey when will this stop?
So by the way,my hair is longer like it covers my whole ears. Damn the last time I checked my hair on the mirror it was shorter and now.. Damn It's been so long..
Why I don't like to cut my hair..
I really don't like to cut my hair because 1.I want these damn hair to be touched by Louis' hand when were having a you-know-what-I-mean! (Lol like it will possibly happend!) 2. This is a part of my sacrifice for the sake of love. 3. Long hair don't care. I don't care if this is gay as fuck but having this long hair uhmm makes me to imagine that I'm his princess. Lol!
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I went out again this week with Gemma and she took me to the movies and we ate lunch and she even bought me some clothes and shoes. Lucky to have a sister like this!
And I forgot! I spotted the slut who sat at Louis' lap and I freakin want to slap that bitch's face but I can't because Marie said that I should try to control my temper so that I can be normal again..
Bad thought
Fuck! What if she told Louis that she freakin spotted me at the mall?
What if he will went into my house in no time?
Oh my god! I'm not ready for this!
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And hey I met this gal which is my sister's bestfriend.. Well, she's not that new to me because she always hangs out with my sister. But now, I finally get to know her. She's kinda nice though. And she smells like vanilla. (Lol why do I need to state her scent?!)
And there's something very unique about this girl, she's very simple.. She doesn't wear make up which reveals her beauty (well not as beautiful like my baby cakes) and she even wears sweatpants (like hey that's not really girly,dude) .
So yeah I got to talk to her and it felt like I have known her for years. She's really outgoing and she's fun to be with. And by the way her name is Eleanor Calder. (Hey I love her name tho hahaha) Ok that's weird!
All the love, H.x
Omg short chapters again :(( sorry larries been a busy week but I promise that I will double update every weekends :)
So this story is actually inspired by a book called 'Am I Normal Yet?' By Holly Bourne. It is actually a good novel and I got inspired by it so I wrote one. It is that a 16 year old who wants to be normal again because she has anxiety and OCD,it is some kind of disease where you always want to wash your hands and you're very scared of getting your hands dirty and yes she's going to college,she have friends who wouldn't dump her but boyfriend... Uhm nope. She has a very tragic situations everytime she has a date (Yep a spoiler for you;)) so I recommend this to you guys! it is a very honest speaking story I've ever read :))
And hey sorry for my offensive words tho :( it's just actually my way of expressing my feelings lol! Ok byeee! Thank you for reading! Love ya lots. x
