Day 41
Dear diary,
Hey there diary. This is pretty depressing well that's not new because well I'm a depressed person. Ok enough with this.
Soooo an update to my depression! I'm doing pretty good! Meds still down to 40mg because Marie said that she's still testing if I could control my emotions and everything. I just really wanted to get rid of these meds because it taste like shit and I can't freakin wait to see Louis..
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I went out again,but this time with Eleanor. Yes! Finally I'm having interest to hang out with someone else ! Wohoo I'm getting better!! ( well I hope so!)
So we went to her coffee shop and we talked for hours and I finally told someone about my depression! (Trust issues decreased!)
She's really helping me because her cousin has a depression too and she said that it is really tough recovering in this situation. Like yes! Finally someone will understand this deepshit around me!
And after our small talk, we went to the movie house and watched "Captain America: The Winter Soldier". And I was pretty surprised that she didn't even complain about this movie I mean,I never thought that she would love to watch action movies than the romantic ones.
Logical thought
Maybe she's a lesbian or a bisexual because I'm starting to wonder with the way she dresses and they way she acts.
And if she's really a lesbi or a bi, I will throw a party because hey finally someone can relate to my sexuality..someone who can accept my weirdness and gayness.
New thought
If I ask her about her sexuality, what could be her reaction? What if she's gonna go felicia on this? What if the question's too offensive? I may never know unless I asked her.
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So another topic.. I've been checking my timeline again and saw Louis and his band 'The Rogue' were going to compete the 'Battle Of The Bands' in their university next week. I really really wanted to watch him perform live and hear his beautiful voice streaming in my ears. But hey.. I can't because I'm not fucking ready and I don't know what I could possibly do if I saw him.
Why I love Louis' band..
First of all,I like this band because simply Louis is there and he is the lead vocals, so why not? And the sound of their music is very modern and they're like inspired by Oasis,Imagine Dragons and Michael Jackson (which is my most favorite artists) And the way they dress is very band-ish type,especially babycakes! He is too hot to be in this band. If you don't like them,then you're deaf and blind!
All the love,H.x
