Day 46
Dear diary,
Oh no! I remember that today is also my check-up with Marie? Ugh! Please somebody call 911? I need a freakin help!
So instead of crying out for help here, I prepare myself for the check up. I have nothing to do with because I just really wanted to be well and I wanted to see Louis again and talk to him.
So Marie told me that I was improving now. She said that I have a very great improvement since the last time. I should keep up the good work and I should hang out more with Eleanor.
And she even joked that maybe I was falling for her! But guess what I don't care because ew I don't like chicks I like dicks. Oops! ;)
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After my appointment with Marie, Gemma brought me to the mall and she gave me a make over because I literally looked like I'm depressed.
She brought to some salon or barber shop or whatever and they fixed my curls but they did not cut my hair because if they did,I will burn them alive.
And then I bought some new clothes and shoes,and one of my fave is the button-up shirt,skin tight jeans and the golden boots. I will use them as my outfit for tonight's event.
We went to pick up El and the band right after we went to the mall. They all look so fabulous and very girl band-ish. They said that I really look different and they said that I'm handsome. (Like woah really?)
Then we stopped by to her coffee shop for their last rehersal so that they can atleast perfect their piece that they're going to sing. Oh and they're going to sing 'Heart Attack' by Demi Lovato (my fave girl!). They're obviously in need of having a practice because they changed their song on our way here.
So as usual they sang so damn good. Wild Roses for the win!!
Bad thought
Oh no! I freakin forgot to drink my jl meds! I really need to drink it if not,then I don't know what will possibly happend to me.
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I hurridly took a cab on the way home to drink my meds while the girls went to the university already. This is freakin messed up! Like ugh! When did I ever forgot a thing! Geez I'm getting older!
Luckily, Gemma went here to pick me up because I definitely don't know where is this university. And you know, it's been two months since the last time I attented school and I didn't miss any of it because it sucks. I only wanted to go to school because Louis is my bus mate.
So as we enter the campus, there are many people as we expected. There are the cool kids,cheerleader,the jocks,the nerds,the hotties,the mean bitches,the emo's,the loner and so many more. If I were one of this group,I'll be in the loner and half cool kid group because you know yes I'm a bit cool because my friends are jocks and lonely because no one loves me.
As we enter the gymnasium, the contest was starting. Screams flooded through my ears as the next band was starting to perform. We went in the front row because we have passes.
But in a fucking unexpected moment, I just bumped Louis Tomlinson. Like what the hell! I didn't even know that he studies here!
Good Thought
Maybe I could use Perrie as my spy..to check if he's flirting with someone or someone is flirting with him..
And you know what,he's like "Oh my god! Harry! Why didn't you say that you're back? I miss you so much!" And then he gave me a hug that I've been waiting for so long. Damn. His warm body pressed against mine. Like hey I could stay right there forever. And fuck his globdamn face! He is handsome than ever! Oh how I really wish that I could kiss him right infront of these punk ass teenagers and show them that 'hey-I-got-a-hot-boyfriend-and-you-don't-have-haha!'
Bad thought
Oh my god! Why am I tearing up? I can't cry! Not infront of these bitches!
New Thought
Maybe if I act like I don't know him,maybe everything will be better.
And so after he hugged me, I acted out as if I got an amnesia and said "Who are you? Why did you know me?"
Even though I really wanted to tell him that I really miss him too and how did my world crashed without seeing his presence.
And so, Louis right here is very shocked. He's like "Are you serious? You really don't remember me?". And my sister here rescued me and she said that I got into an accident and lost all memory.
And then Louis replied,"Oh my god! Poor Harry.. I will help you to remember those memories."
Logical Thought
Is this a sign that he loves me too? Or he's just being a caring brother again? Hmm..
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So after a few minutes,Louis and his bandmates went to the stage to perform. Oh shit! Eleanor and Louis are fucking contenders! Which side am I?! Guess what. I don't know.
Ok so back to their performance. They actually sang my favorite song, 'Lucky' by Colbie Colliat and Louis knows that. You know this song is actually my 'theme song' for Louis because hey I'm lucky I'm inlove with my bestfriend but there is a plot twist..He doesn't love me back. So I don't know if this is a coincedence or he's just trying to give me feels and right after that he'd pretend that nothing happend?
But anyways, I was actually teary eyed when my baby was singing like oh my gosh his voice! It's so fucking perfect!
After their performance, 'Wild Roses' was next. When the beat dropped, Eleanor beautifully sang Demi's song.
As we expected, they nailed it!
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Few bands passed, they are finally announcing the winners. For peepsake, my ears can't even handle the other bands. To be honest Wild Roses and The Rogue were the only bands who can actually sing. I'm not being bias or what but really, I think they are the only band who will fight for the title.
So guess who won? *drumroll*
Wild Roses! *claps* hahaha okay!
I'm really happy for them because they didn't even have an enough time to practice that piece and they won!
Oh oh! I forgot! After the competition, Louis talked to me again. He said that we should bond more because it's been 2 and a half months since we didn't get along with each other. I can't say no because I really really wanted to be with him. I miss how the way we talk,the way we laugh, and most likely everything.
So I said yes without a doubt, even though my sister encourages me to say no, I didn't listen to her because hey this is my chance to bond with him.
Good Thought
I can't imagine what will possibly happen if we hang out with each other again. I'm excited!
Bad Thought
But uh oh wouldn't it be awkward? I hope not but I really think that it will be.
All the love,H.x
