Suicide was all that rang in my head. Suicide was screaming it's way through a burning hole in my heart. I will take this as the end. I know this is my final decision; the final choice I will ever make. I sit at the counter and write my last words.
Mom, you may read this when it's too late. I'm sorry. I know you all saw this coming. Day in and day out, it was all shit. Everything. They took me off the only drug that could save me. It was hard. Know that I love you so much. You've always tried your best to be a good mother. It's not your fault, please don't cry. Things will go to shit eventually, for me it just came sooner than expected. Please keep an eye on Kyle. He said he'd try to follow me if I go. I'll say goodbye to dad one last time for you and Shelley.
-Stan
Kyle, my super best friend. I want you to know that this was my only hope. Don't hurt yourself over me. I held you tightly as we both hugged for the last time. Only you can keep this bond going. You can keep it alive, but you have to keep yourself alive first. I will see you again someday. Promise me you will make the most of your life. I'm not really sure what happens after death, but if I end up being a ghost or whatever spirit that continues to walk earth, I will always be around you. And if it scares you, just tell me to set free and I will go. This is a pretty shitty way to say goodbye, it's the most heartfelt I've ever been with you. I love you man. I wish you the best life.
Your super best friend, Stan.
It's time to go now. It becomes harder as I come closer to the end. Knowing I want to die in the illusionary world I once lived in, I drink as much alcohol as I can. I want this to kill me, so in between sips I'll swallow a few pills at a time from some nearby pill bottle. If it doesn't kill me, it'll be a miracle.
I hear sirens far off in the distance coming closer. If they find me, they aren't going to like what they see. I'm losing consciousness now. It's nearing the end. I can feel my body stop working. It'll only be a matter of seconds now. I can't go back now. The end is near.
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FanfictionInside Stan Marsh's mind, everything has turned to shit. He's a mess. As everything changes once again, everything falls apart. Hope is lost. What once was unbreakable and good will finally meet its life or death decision. Please read this shitty s...
