The Lonely Moon

The curious girl

The whole time I was heading towards the lookout that night, I felt like I was being watched or followed, but I didn't care, whoever it was would lose interest soon anyways. I went up to the lookout like normal, just as the moon began to rise. I put down my stuff and leaned against the railing waiting for Cindy to show up and say something stupid, but she isn't coming, that's right if I recall, she said something about not coming here yesterday, guess she's just not in the mood. Oh well, that means I can watch the moon in peace then. Just as I finish that thought, I hear a branch snap and a gasp. I look towards the noise, to find a girl standing there. I look at her for a second, but then I look back at the moon, she doesn't concern me. She comes up to the lookout and stands a little ways away from me, apparently watching me. She seems like she wants to say something, but she can't do it, so I speak first, "What are you doing up here?" I caught her off guard and she replied, "I followed you here, I wanted to know something!" I ask without looking at her, "What do you want to know?" She has regained here composure. She confidently asks, "Why do you refuse to talk to anyone, or participate in class?" I chuckle a little and respond in an amused manor, "People just use you, then they betray you and leave you and school, school is a waste of my time. I don't need friends, I don't need those connections that only fools believe will last." She apparently didn't expect my answer to be that. She was taken aback and nervously said, "Why... how can you feel like that, what reason do you have for believing that." Annoyed by this conversation, I start to walk away. She tries to stop me by saying, "At least show me what's behind that mask." I looked her straight in the eyes and I said, in an emotionless voice, that was sad and lonely, "You can't handle what's behind this mask, it would crush you, just like it did them." I said that, making it as misleading as possible and I start to walk away. Before I reach the end of the stairs, I hear her again behind me say, "My name is Sarah and I will learn more about you, you can't stay alone forever, everybody needs someone." I just leaned my head back and looked at that lonely moon, every time I do, I see myself reflected in it, sad and alone, but not wanted to talk to anyone. I turned back to her and said, "You can't understand why I hurt, so don't pretend you can, it's not nice or funny, I don't need pity or sympathy." I was angry that she got a reaction out of me and I quickly put my second mask on and said in my usual emotionless voice, "My pain can't be fixed, so there's no point in trying, goodbye. I don't believe we will speak again." She was trying to say something more, but I walked away before she could finish it. Into that night with my moon, so lonely in the night sky.