I just know..!

Chapter 2

Tears started welling up in my eyes,I could feel a clench in my stomach,I felt like something has been drained out of my body as if my blood was getting evaporated even in such cold weather,my hands shivered and I could feel my face grow paler than it already is.I froze.

"Star!.what's wrong?"he said moving forward to catch my hand.i sat down before he could touch me or maybe before I faint and fall on the floor.

"Nothing..!she is pretty!"I said fidgeting. "How long has it been?"I asked bringing up courage.

"It's been 3 weeks..you have no clue how serious I am about her.i was with her this morning,I lost my keys so I called you.i felt so guilty to lie to you and that is why I was so irritated from morning.!"he ended as if he was very relieved.i didn't answer,I kept taking deep breaths,I couldn't handle it anymore.

"Will you meet her?she wanted to meet you so badly!"he said with all smiles.
"Sure.!but I have to get to class now..!"I said and walked away.Little did I know that I wouldn't see his smile for the next 2 years.
"Star..how about this weekend?"he yelled from behind. Can't he see that I'm hurt?Cant he see that I love him?.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks,I kept my eyes stuck to the ground and walked hurriedly towards the washroom. I hit into someone's back,I lifted up my head to see who it was "Blaze!..what's wrong.!"Brandon said and hugged me.
I hugged him back and started crying,I didn't care where I was,I didn't care who was staring,all that mattered to me was 'sky never belonged to me'.
"What's wrong Blaze?"he asked again caressing my hair."it's Blake..he never loved me..he has a girlfriend..!"I managed to say between my sobs.Brandon always knew how much I loved Blake. He was one of those people who used to tell me that Blake and I were made for each other.

"Let's go home..!"he said and we walked towards the parking lot.

I saw Blake laughing with a girl..maybe..Miranda .my stomach clenched at the view. Brandon held on to me tightly and I fixed my gaze on the floor.

"Star!..Brandon..!"Blake yelled out coming towards us and that girl followed behind him. Could this day get anymore worse than it already is?.YES came the instant answer.

"Hey bro!."Brandon said trying hard to sound normal.i didn't lift my gaze up.
"Star.?"he started lifted my head up."Star..what's wrong..?"he shrieked looking at my probably red eyes and puffy face.
"She isn't feeling well.!"Brandon said. Thanks Brandon,seriously you are the best brother one can have.
The girl came closer and said "you must be star..right sky!"she said cheerfully.she called Blake 'sky',doesn't she know that I'm the only who calls him with that name.?

"Yes..she is babe!" Blake said holding on to her waist.
"Star..she is Miranda..my love..!" He said as if he was introducing his girlfriend to his mother.

"Hey.!"I said my voice still breaking.
"You ok star?"Blake asked as if he cared.I'm obviously not ok ,can't he see that?,I'm breaking,my knees felt weak and I couldn't see his face clearly anymore.

Everything around blurred and I hit the ground hard passing out. All I could hear was Brandon calling out my name and Blake telling Miranda that he would meet her later.

I woke up to find myself in a white walled room(no,I'm not dead) and blue curtains.I figured it to be a hospital,I looked around and saw Brandon sleeping on the couch ,I wondered what time it was.
"Branny!" I said trying hard to get the voice out. My throat was dried as if I was living in a desert.
He moved slowly and looked at me "Blaze..how are you feeling now?"he asked looking at me as if I was a small dog left alone on raining road.

"I'm fine branny!" I said and he walked up to me.
"Why were you taking those food supplementary pills?"he asked leaving me shocked.
"The medical report showed that you have been taking these pills from past 6 months...why?"he asked as if something was hurting him.
"For Blake "I said knowing that he wouldn't accept any of my lies.
"What do you mean 'for Blake'?"he asked trying to control his anger.

"I loved him Brandon..so much..He was always behind those girls with amazing structure and pretty clothes while I can't carry myself in those clothes..so I tried to maintain a structure at least ..now he is gone and I promise I won't anymore..!"I said crying again.

"I'm sorry.!"he said wiping my tears."Blake..will you do me a favour?" He asked and I had to say yes cause he never ever asked me for anything in my entire life so seriously.

"Yes..I will"I said and he continued "Go to New York and stay with mom and dad until you get over him.!"

"But Brandon I can't stay without seeing him!,what will you do alone here?,what will I tell mom and dad?"I asked.

"He doesn't get it Blaze,all he does is think about himself , he will be roaming around with Miranda,he might even get her home and I'm positive you can't take it and as far as I'm concerned...I'll get used to it..I'll keep coming there..so it's ok..I guess"he said looking away.

"Branny..can I ask you something?"I asked and he simply nodded.
"Is he here or did he at least call?"I asked which made Brandon a little angry.

"He dropped us here day before and left ..he said he will come later that night and hasn't showed up since then"he said coming closer to me.
"What do you mean by day before..I have been sleeping for two days ..?" It sounded like I was telling myself rather than asking him and I felt dizzy again.God,when am I going to get better.not any sooner...I knew..!!

"Yeah..you aren't doing that well Blaze and that is why I'm asking you to go to mom and da..!"he ended and My vision blurred again and I blacked out.

I woke up a day later with a severe pain in my gut,I woke Brandon up and by the time I realised that there was something wrong going on in my body I puked all over the floor. I wondered when did I eat so much to puke this much.The nurses rushed in,changed my clothes and I fainted again two minutes later with a crazy pain in my gut.
Three hours later Brandon woke me up for my medicines and I asked if he could take me for a walk.he hesitated considering my health but said yes when I insisted.
We walked for 5 minutes and then I fainted again in the middle of the path in the walking area.Brandon lifted me up in his arms and carried me hurriedly inside.

Three days of continuous puking,waking up in those pukes for 7 times,eight different kinds of pills after every meal,pity looks from Alex and Brandon,a heart waiting for its love,dark circles,puffy face,dried lips,groggy voice and four sleepless nights later I fixed my mind to leave this place.

No,he never showed up and I couldn't ask for him.brandon was in a miserable condition too.he didn't tell mom and dad and tried to manage everything on his own.

"Branny ..I'm ready to go!"I said,I couldn't even recognise my own voice.
" thank god blaze..I'm so happy..your flight will be arranged by tonight "he said removing his phone from his pocket happily.i smiled and started feeling dizzy again. Maybe I shouldn't smile anymore,maybe I have a curse that I shouldn't smile anymore,maybe those happy days are now gone..maybe I'm done being loved or was I ever loved??..Sometime between thinking about loving and being loved I blacked out beside the on the floor.
'I love you sky!'was all I wanted to yell before passed out.