I just know..!

Chapter 24

Maybe I wasn't the happiest, but at least I was content with what I had until Steve showed up. I was peacefully crying everyday thinking that he moved on leaving me behind. But that day, I knew he still loved me... I couldn't keep the distance any longer. I wanted to hug him tight and close the distance between us forever and kiss him. I wanted to feel special again!

Lisa!

What would she do without Steve?
I walked to my room, trying to forget everything. I had a eight year old son who can't take my tears! I had to hide these!!

I opened the door with a minimal sound and saw him happily sleeping. Wasn't this enough for me?

I climbed onto my side without  any noise and stared at the roof as if there were answers to my impossible questions, written all over the ceiling.

By the time sleep took over me, I had these decided :
1. Steve should never know
   that I wasn't married.
2. Apologise to Brandon.. I   
   don't know why.. But just
   apologise!
3. Tell Lisa the truth and help
   her out truthfully!
4. The most obvious and never
   changing decision : I love
   Steve! So maintain distance!

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"So Steve, Lisa and Blazey will be going for cake ordering.. These love birds to the airport to receive Al's parents and Blake?" Mom looked around searching for Blake and saw me getting down the stairs. The whole lot of them were sitting in the main hall as my mom allotted work to each of them.

"Good morning honey!" She kissed my forehead as I sat beside her thinking of what she said earlier. Steve, Lisa and I ! Really!?!

"Where's Blake?" Mom asked Brandon and then turned to me. Steve snapped his head towards me as if he was eagerly waiting for an answer.
"He's gone out!" Brandon helped.
"He has to select the menu!" Mom said writing down his name. She literally drew a table and wrote down the to-do list. How can anyone be so systematic and organised. How!?

"Can I go with Blake?" I said still in my sleepy voice. I didn't want to go with Steve out of all the people. Plus, it would be like an unplanned date for Lisa and him!

"Obviously!" Steve muttered and thank god no one heard. Though this behaviour of Steve was slicing me into pieces.. I preferred this! For his good!

"No! No! You'll select nothing but pancakes! You are going with Steve!" She declared and I looked at Lisa to ask if she was okay with me to tag along. She smiled and I had no idea of that was yes or no!?!

Steve and Lisa were holding their hands. She was staring at their clasped hands. I smiled and while looking away my eyes met with Steve's. We froze for a second, we lost ourselves in each other's eyes. I looked away first when Mom shook me.
"Yes..mom!" I said restlessly. I wanted to spend the rest of my life staring at those studded emeralds!
"I asked you to go change thrice!" She repeated. I got up from the king size Victoria sofa and lazily dragged myself to the stairs.

Parker was watching Anime series when I went in. He had a box of chocolates in front of him and was eating one after the other without a minute gap.
"Parker!" I yelled.He stood up and the chocolates fell down.
"Put that box there! No more chocolates!" I yelled again and he stared at me making his eyes wide. Why was I angry with him? Eating Chocolates can't make me this angry?
He quietly picked up the box and put it aside.
"I'm going out and won't be back till 3 in the afternoon.. I expect you to eat lunch with Anna! Get it!" I said harshly searching for something to wear.
My mind was a mess, I didn't know what was going on! I was getting restless! I wanted to sit quietly and stare at the beautiful lake view.
It's called jealousy! - The weird voice in my head said.
What am I jealous of?
Steve and Lisa! - No Way! I want them to be together! I can't be jealous!
You are fucked - Definitely!