I just know..!

Chapter 11

I felt like a pile of nerves, a huge lump. He didn't react,not even a little. It was so suffocating. How does he keep all that mess in? Where does he get so much of patience.?

"Will you even get out of that car.?" Mom said knocking on the window.
"Yeah mom.!" I dragged and got down the car. We walked into the house in silence. I was thinking about Steve, I wanted to know if he was alone,talking to himself and crying to himself.! Please Steve..don't cry and please don't let me be reason.!
Why was my mom quiet? She is quiet only if she is about to cry or if she is in the library.! According to my senses we are not even close to a library.! So Blaze get ready for a melodrama.! No offence mom.!

"Mom? What's wrong.?" I enquired.
"I keep trying to make time for you and Brandon..but I'm not really able do it,am I?" She questioned wiping the tears rolling in her cheeks.
"Mom..You are just trying to give Brandon and I a better life.. You are doing this to provide us what we need..in fact you are giving us more mom.. Don't ever cry mom..!" I explained taking her hand into mine.
"Really.?.. Do you really understand my sacrifices.?" She said tucking my hair behind my ear.
"Yes mom..Brandon and I have seen all your love mom..so we know how much you miss us.!" I assured.
"Thanks Blaze.! It means a lot.! Can I ask you something.?" She said and I had feeling that it was about Steve.
"No mom! I don't love Steve.!" I stated.
"You are as stubborn as your dad.!" She laughed.

I went upstairs to sleep. But obviously I can't sleep! How can I out of all people sleep? My brain has to think about every darn thing as soon as my head hits the pillow.
I re-thought about sky, that horrible day, Miranda, Steve,Stace, Stace's boyfriend Mike, Daisy and also about Cindy.! Overthinking is all I did till 4 am in the morning.! Innocent Insomniac is what I am!
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"Skies are crying, I'm watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me.?" I kept yelling while packing my bag.
"You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on try to tear me down
I will be rising-" I stopped hearing Steve laugh and turned around to look at him. It felt great to see him like that. I could stare at that laugh for the rest of my life. What was connection.? That was the question I never found an answer to.?
"Situational song huh?" He asked holding his stomach and I smiled at my second Greek god.! You know first!!

"Kind off yeah! Finished your packing.?" I asked as he sat beside me in the bed.
"Daisy is doing it.. Being a charmer helps! He shrugged.
"If anyone is a charmer here, that would be me!" I said throwing in my tablets.
Yeah! I'm still taking them because Brandon thinks it will help my insomnia. He thinks Steve is my medicine for all the other problems. Maybe he is!
"The sad part about your jokes is they are not even funny.!" He said falling back on my bed.
"And you think your jokes are funny!" I retorted.
"So you agree that you were joking?"he laughed..that laughing hyena.
"I never said so.!" I said packing my bags. I am really dumb and he knows that.! Like I care!
"Sweetheart.! Continue your singing !" He ordered doing something in his phone.
"I can see that I already have fans for my singing.!" I said smiling.
"I asked you to sing so that I don't sleep..your voice is like this squeaky alarm.! He laughed.
"Very funny Steve..! I'm dying with laughter.! Ha..Ha.. Ha..please stop.!" I fake laughed.
"Go on.." He said as if he doesn't care about my little drama.
"I will be raising from the ground
Like a skyscraper-" He sang along with me. His voice was..was as if he was in really in pain. We kept singing until our mouths dried and laughed with a satisfaction, a strange one.
"Lunch.?" He asked a little later.
"Mom won't let me out as we are leaving tonight.!" I said and smiled looking at his disappointed face.
"Sneak out with me.?"
"I have maids inside and guards all around my house..it's impossible.!" I tried.
"Just say yes or no I'll take care of the rest.!" He said raising his eyebrows.
"Yes!" I hesitated. I basically wanted to know what he would do to get me out rather than go out and eat!.. Frankly! I want to eat too.!
He walked out of the room and asked me to follow as if he understood where the next clue in the treasure hunt game was.
"Nicole!" He knocked on my parent's room door.
"What the f***? She won't send! It will be hard for us to go out now! I thought you would plan an escape or something like they show in movies..God!" I whispered, irritation clear in my voice.
"Yes!....Steve!" My exclaimed as if she found her long lost son.
"Hey Nicole! I just wanted to ask if you can send Blaze for lunch with me?" He asked with all smiles.
"Sure.. Be here by 5pm max.! I don't want you people to miss your flight.!" She said and looked at me saying
"Blaze! Go dress up!".
"This is fine mom!" I said looking down at my messy shorts and dirty checked shirt.
It was a good kind of messy..!