I just know..!

Chapter 4

I woke up with a strange severe pain in my gut.I called Anna for help. I didn't tell her about the pain knowing she would ask me sleep. I told her that I wanted to walk. She was more than happy to see the sudden improvement in my health.
Just while she was shifting me to the wheel chair she got a call. She shifted me carefully and went out of the room to attend the call. I moved myself to wash room and I got up holding onto the knob of the washroom door.
I pushed the door slightly and just when I was about to take a step into the washroom my knees grew weaker,my vision blurred and that strange pain in the stomach grew severe.
I passed out and fell on to the floor.

I woke up 3 hours later surrounded by 2 doctors and 3 nurses.
"How are you feeling Ms.Davis?"one of the doctor asked as soon as he realised that I woke up.
I didn't answer,I couldn't.!
I closed my eyes again,blame the sedatives I was given.
Later,I started shivering and the stomach pain kept on increasing.i kept squeezing the bedsheets expecting someone to see that I was in pain. I vomited to the side of the bed.
Anna helped me walk to the washroom where I puked more and more.
I was crying in pain,my legs gave up and I fell down in the washroom. I puked for another 10 minutes,I wondered when I ate so much to puke this much.
I sat there even though I was done,I had a feeling that there was more to come..I sat there bent forwards,Anna was rubbing my back which made me feel a little better.i rested on the bathroom wall for sometime and then Anna took me in.
She changed my clothes, however I was still stinking. I didn't bother,all I wanted to do was close my eyes and escape from reality.
I woke up yelling out for 'sky',Anna held me back and tried to put me back to sleep again.
I had the worst nightmares,I kept yelling out either for sky or for Brandon and if I was awake I either fainted or puked.
They increased the number of pills after each meal,by the Time I finished my meal I used to puke it out,then they would give me the pills so that I could sleep.By the time I woke up Anna stood beside me with a tray in hand so that I could vomit in that.they kept giving me sedative injections and injections that controlled shivering. I was covered in 2 or 3 covers to keep me warm.Anna spent more than half of her day cleaning my body and the ends of my hair which were dipped in my puke.

I was just a piece of furniture in that room.the only difference is that the original furniture fortunately doesn't get any pity looks and don't live on ventilators like I did.

I had many questions in my mind;
•will I see sky?
•will I ever be able to walk,talk?
•will I ever be able to do things on my own?
•will I ever go back to normal?
•will I go back to Canada?
•Will I die? I wanted see sky if I was about to die.
•do I have any disease?
 
  Whom do I ask? And how? I couldn't speak..I saw Mom and Dad only on the day I came back.Brandon called Anna to know about my condition but never spoke to me because he knew I couldn't speak.
I didn't see sky and was sick for a month + 4 days + 6 hours.
Can a broken heart alone be the reason for all this? Or may be these are the side affects of love ?
Brandon wanted to talk tome that night,Anna held the receiver near my ear.
"W..w..will I e..ev..ever be o..ok?"I asked Brandon choking and stammering. I struggled for at least 5 minutes to utter these words.
"You will and I promise.!" Brandon replied breathing out heavily.
"Th..th..tha..nks..!"I replied,I doubt whether he even heard.
Anna spoke to him and I heard them talking about the food supplements I used to take. I wondered if that led to this..?

The next morning I woke up with a stronger determination to walk,but deep down I had a feeling that I would end up fainting and puking. I made up my mind to try one last time,if I fail,I would never try and I would just stick to this bed for the rest of my life.

Mom and dad were not in the mansion even after 6 days but that didn't surprise me,what surprised me was a text saying that they would be back home by that evening without fail.
Anna helped me in bathing and changing into clothes that would help me feel warmer. I shivered but not as much as the previous 6 days.
She shifted me into my wheelchair and took me to our extra huge lawn. I asked her to stay,once I'm alone I can't stop myself from thinking about the miserable days I've been through just for someone to whom I never meant anything.