You Are My Life

Chapter 11: Leaving

The whole room was quietly peaceful as I began to open my sleep filled eyes. I looked out at the balcony to see that it was still pretty dark out; the sun was just about to rise. I laid my head down on the soft pillow, just another day with Michael. Wait……… something wasn’t right, I didn’t feel the warmth of his body or the touch of his skin against mine. I looked over to see that he was gone and in his place was a note. Dear Saria, it pains me to have to part from you for even a few days at that, but I know that I have to finish this tour. I promise you the sun and the moon and anything else your beautiful soul desires, but above all of this, I promise you I will return for you. I know all I’m going to do while in Los Angeles is remember how much I miss being with you and all the wonderful memories we’ve already created, I hope we continue to make them too. Just remember though we’re far apart, you’re always in my heart. This not a goodbye……goodbyes are only for the last time I ever lay eyes on you (god forbid) this is simply see you soon. With all my heart and for all time, love Mikey. I felt my eyes swell up in tears as I read what he had left me over and over again. I know I should have told him yesterday that the real reason I didn’t want to go was because I was afraid, I never realized how much he cared for me. And to be completely honest I never realized how much I cared for him. It felt like I just lost one of the biggest pieces of my heart, just cruelly ripped from my rib cage. The room was so dead and lifeless without his heart warming smile to look at, nothing was the same. I felt the loneliest I ever have in my entire life, I couldn’t take sitting here in this room one more second. I got up out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom. I walked in and turned the light on; my knees went weak immediately. He had left me another note on the mirror with my lipstick, classy. Saria you are a true treasure, a marvelous work of god. You are absolutely the most beautiful, wonderful, kind, and loving person I’ve ever known. I hope that you’ll wait for me and allow me to continue to be in your life. God knows I hope and pray every day that you’ll stay in mine. With all my heart and for all time, love Mikey. I fell to my knees and began crying, how I could have decided to stay behind! I hurt Michael in that decision and now I’ve realized I’m really hurting myself in this whole situation. I sobbed sitting there on the bathroom floor thinking of how he would probably get back to Los Angeles and do his show and meet some other girl in a similar situation to me. How he would be his loving self and take her in, he would fall in love with her and totally forget about me. I may never see Michael again; it hit me like a huge ass brick wall. I stood up a little upset and angered with myself and at the thought of Michael forgetting me for another woman. I jumped in the shower super quick and grabbed some clothes to change into. As I was getting ready I felt a queasy feeling hit me in the pit of my stomach, I automatically ran to the bathroom and found myself hovering over the toilet throwing up my guts. I finished up in the bathroom and started throwing my stuff within the suitcase and running down to the lobby. I turned in the key, “hello Ms. Hart, not staying longer?” “Uh no I have somewhere I need to be,” I said rushing past them and out the front door. I ran to the curb and started waving down a taxi, it was already 9:00 and his plane was leaving at 10:00. while sitting in the taxi I began thinking of how I was leaving everything behind, my family and friends, my job…..well probably not my job. They’ve probably fired me already considering I’ve been gone for two weeks and haven’t called in once. Oh well, I didn’t care for that job anyways. I begin thinking about Raquel and Abby; I was going to miss them. I picked up my phone and called and waited forever for the other line to pick up. “Hello?” I heard faintly on the other end. “Raquel, it’s Saria,” I said calmly. “Oh my god gurl we thought you were dead!!!!” she shrieked through the phone. “Well I love you too!” I said sarcastically. “Where have you been for two weeks then!” she asked a little upset. “Look it’s a very complicated situation and I’m okay, but I need you to tell everyone so. I’m also going to be gone for awhile……for a business trip. I don’t know how long I’ll be gone, but just make sure everyone knows I’m okay,” I said looking at the time again, crap its 9:25! “Okay I can do that!” she said relieved. “Okay I would love to talk but I have to go, see you later.” I said grabbing my stuff and jumping out of the car, I was now at the airport. “Bye Saria.” “Bye,” I said hanging up and handing the driver some money. I ran into the airport completely confused not really knowing what I should do, all I knew was that I needed to find him. I ran to the wall of flights to see what terminal I needed to go to. ‘Terminal 77B, private flight’ that had to be Michael's! I ran down the long building dodging crazy people and their luggage, its 9:40! I came to a complete stop as I realized that I was so close. He was just about to walk into the plane door; I didn’t know what to do so I yelled, “Michael!”