blind. 2 | styles (hariana)

XXII. Like Everything That's Green

part 1 cos wattpad keeps privating this smh

*u might wanna read the previous chapter cos it's been so long (it's been so long)*

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~ Ariana ~

Her presence immobilized me. I felt my chest constrict, inch by inch a little further than before until my lungs became one with my bones and my skin matched the colour of the walls.

I was a deer caught in headlights, staring at the girl who made my life a living hell I burned in.

The crystals I was used to cowering from in rivers of black shined brightly as she gave Harry her attention. Long dark hair, twirled between her fingers. I wonder why she hasn't said a word. Have I become invisible to her now― I remember the days when I was her obsession. I see it as an obsession now; why else would someone devote years to tormenting one soul.

She flashed her pearly white smile and I feel blinded again by this girl who made me think less of myself.

A prey amidst its predator, that's how I felt.

I didn't realize that I was having a hard time breathing until I inhaled sharply, a memory flashing in my mind as I drifted off into space.

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It was a few months before the change room incident. We were on a class trip.

"Alright children, make sure you have all of your belongings before boarding the bus." My teacher reminded the class as we gathered around her in our small assigned groups.

I didn't have anyone. At least anyone I could talk to; Sian made sure of that.

She degraded my worth as a person; intellectually and physically. I would never be as smart as the other kids, she'd say, because I didn't learn like them; I couldn't see the lessons or observe and answer questions like all the 'normal' kids. I read the material and learnt everything with the help of my councilor but it would never be enough. I always needed assistance, no matter how independent I wish I could be.

No boy wanted to become my friend because boys were of that age where they believed they knew the female body. What they wanted however, were only two things: boobs and ass. Such underdeveloped and misconstrued understandings of the female anatomy only lead boys to look at me and say "She's not a woman, where are her boobs? Her ass?" Their words left bullet holes in my self-esteem that no amount of armor could shield. Sian gave them their ammunition and she watched the aftermath of these all-against-one wars.

In this moment we were on a class trip; the museum. It was some type of gallery that hosted a new exhibit for dinosaurs. Being the only one who could not view the exhibit, I was left in the dark on the experience of seeing a real life dinosaur fossil. The tour guide could only be so descriptive; it was disappointing to say the least. The trip required us to leave our belongings in little slide-out cubicles with hooks where we could leave our bags.

I followed my councilor to the cubicle upon overhearing Sian make another snide comment about my sluggish movements. I wanted to get away from her as fast as possible. My councilor handed me my backpack and we made our way to the front of the group where my teacher was.

Then someone screamed, "Ew, what is that?"

I turned around, hearing the voice behind me.

"It's a condom!"

"It fell out of Ariana's bag!"

My eyes widened, my lips parting to defend myself, "No it didn't, that's not mine!"