The darkest path, the walking dead

Chapter 4: Apologetic

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I wake up inside the RV which is weird because I fell asleep outside near the fire. I push myself off the bed and start to walk towards the door but I fall on something, Lucas. I trip over his feet and my chest lands on his chest. Ok this is awkward. His eyes fly open showing his brown eyes, I want to jump of him but his arm raps around my back. I look into his eyes and he looks into mine, making me feel quite unconfutable. He leans in to kiss me, shit, no. I place my pointer finger on his lips and shake my head to say no. I hear footsteps and hope to god it's not going to be an adult and I hope it's not going to be awkward. Carl walks in smiling and when he looks down him face falls and he run back out of the RV. I pull myself from Lucas and sit back on the bed.
"I'm sorry I wasn't thinking straight" he says, as I sit on the bed and pull myself into the corner.
"That was awkward" I say running my fingers through my hair. He sits on the end of the bed and looks at me. Why did Carl look so pissed at us? I sigh and play with my fingers.
"How did I get in here?" I ask trying to change the subject.
"You where having nightmares last night and I was worried you would roll into the fire or something so I carried you in here" he shrugs and I roll my eyes.
"Why are you being like this you don't know me" I say and he sighs looking into my eyes.
"I just wanted to help, why do you push people away?" he sighs.
"I don't mean to but bloody hell between you and Carl, you two don't even know me and you two keep doing things for me and trying to protect me" I almost yell pulling my catquiver and bow over my shoulder and walking out of the RV I see a few people sitting around what was a fire but it's now burnt out. I walk up to them and sit down. A Korean guy comes and sits next to me.
"I'm so sorry I didn't mean to I swear you just came out of nowhere" he says very quickly. I look at him confused.
"I'm the idiot who hit you with a car" he sighs loudly.
"Oh" I laugh "its fine seriously my hand is feeling better, I'm fine it was nothing" I lie, my hand is killing me.
"Are you sure?" He asks and I just nod simply.
"I'm Glenn what's your name? Rick told me that you don't really like talking about your name so you don't have to tell me, honestly" he said.
"My names Luna and I take it you already know that considering that you talked to rick about it" I laugh, I'm good at reading people.
"Yeah I know but I just wanted to make conversation" Glenn laughs too. A lady marches up to me, she has wavy brown hair and she looks angry.
"You stay away from my son you hear me? You are a bad influence on him how dare you take him with you he could have been hurt!" She yells getting in my face and I get the impression that she is Carl's mother.
"I didn't go near your son; he went near me each time! And I didn't take him with me he followed me I didn't know it so you stay away from me you bitch! Maybe you should have been taken better care of him!" I yell putting my face in hers. She looks shocked for a second but then raises her hand and slaps me straight across the face but the thing that hurts the most was that her nails scratched me as she slapped me and I fall to the ground. I'm used to the abuse...
"LORI STOP! That's too far you just slapped a kid" Glenn yells as I stand up and wiped away the dirt from my jeans.
"Your gunna wanna hope that your never in trouble and the only person around is me because I will not help you I will let you die" I yell and grad my bag and bow.

"Leave" she growls at me and stormed off in the opposite direction. I turn a corner around the RV and I run into Carl.
"Watch it" I snap as I keep walking, he jogs alongside me trying to catch up.
"What happened to your face?" Carl asks.
"It doesn't matter Carl leave me alone." I snap, I don't want to yell at him but his mum did just slap me and tell me to stay away from him.
"Did a walker get you?" Carl gasps.
"Why don't you ask your insane mother" I growl, Carl stops and stares at me but then runs in the direction of his mother. I stumble towards the RV no one's there it's just me again.
I grad a pen and paper and start to write:

'I didn't want to leave but I can tell I'm not wanted and I don't have anyone here to keep me here.' I write  But I can't leave I just can't, I'm starting to think rick is right I do need people, I rip up the note and throw it in the bin. I've still got my bag and bow but I'm not leaving for good I just need to rage on a walker so I'm going to find some walkers but first I want to change clothes maybe and wash some dirt off me, I stumble into the bathroom in the RV and take my shirt off my hole right side is bruised and a awful purple colure, I run my fingers through my hair as I decide to take the bandage on my hand off, I unwrap it to see my hand looked even worse than my right side which I would have thought was impossible, there is also dry blood around what looks to be a very beep cut, I sigh as I put water on the cut. I wince when the water touches it but I try not to focus on how much it hurts. I get a wet cloth and wipe away the dirt from my face and arms, I sigh knowing that I would never get all the dirt off but I don't care I'll go find a walker and when I get back I'll try harder to get the dirt and blood off but for now this will do. I stumble down the street away from the group.

I don't know how many hours I've been walking but I just don't remember I could have been walking for a day or two. I don't even know what time it was when I left. My feet have massive blisters and I can barely walk anymore. I feel like I haven't slept in days or eaten or drunk anything in days. I walk along a street to find a house that looks ok but if I go in there and I see a walker I don't know if I can take it down I feel so tired, I know that the reason I came here was to kill a walker but now I just want to be back with ricks group so I turn around. I walk until I collapse, my feet feel like there on fire and my lips and tongue feel like sand paper, I found another house, I want to keep walking but I don't know how long I can keep going. I walk into the house and into a kitchen there's a dead walker on the ground but I ignore it. I dragged my feet to the pantry and open it, there's not much in there but I mange to find a can of soup, I put the can on the dining table and then go to the fridge, this is the worst part the fridge it will smell like crap, when I open the fridge the smell floats into the air it smells horrible, I cough and almost puke. I look and find what I was looking for, a water bottle. I walk upstairs and into the bedroom I push a desk up against the door and begin to eat the soup them I drink almost all the water bottle, I would drink it all but I want to save some for later. I drifted into some of the worst dreams I've ever had. I'm back with Carls group and I'm asleep in the RV I get up and walk towards the door but I fall on Lucas but when I look at his eyes, they don't fly open like they did before, I wait for them to open but they don't I then realise how cold he is, I gasp as I throw myself against the wall, Lucas is dead. I walk around Lucas fighting tears and I get out of the RV to see Carl lying on the ground very pale and his face is very bare. I try to tell myself this is a dream but I can't help panicking.
"Carl!" I screamed running to him falling to my knees pulling his head into my lap, crying but as I am about to get up Carls eyes fly open and but there not the normal blue they are walker eyes. Oh god why is this happening. Carl raps his fingers around my arm and I don't move I let him bite into my hand, he takes a chunk out of my hand and I gasp in pain as tears slip down my cheek.
"You deserve this Luna" Someone says, I nod as I look up at mum, dad, Tara, jasmine, rick, Lori, Sophia and Glenn. I want to scream at them that I don't deserve it but I think there right. I deserve this all of this I deserve a death not my family. I should have got raped not my mother, I should have got shot and bitten like my sisters, should have given up on me like my dad gave up on me.

"I know I deserve it all, I do, I do" I yell while tears stream down my face. I'm giving up on me.

||SO AT FISRT I THOUGHT THIS WAS A SHORT CHAPTER BUT ITS KIND OF NORMAL SIZED. SO LUCAS TRIED TO KISS LUNA WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THAT?||