The darkest path, the walking dead

Chapter 18: promises are made to be broken

Carls P.O.V
Their gone everyone, dad left to go find Hershel, mum went to go find dad, Shane went to go find mum and Luna is missing but as usual no one is worried about her. I pace back and fourth in the lounge room, I'm not worried about mum, dad or Shane I'm worried about Luna she was a mess at the funeral and she's pushing me away again, I don't know how to tell her that I care about her more than just friends, if I was Lucas I would just say some dumb pick up line but I'm not like that. I can't sit in this house any longer, I sneak past Andrea who is meant to be watching me and go into the fields, I can see Daryl and Luna's tents. They are so much alike. I walkover to Daryl's burning hot fire.
"Daryl Luna's missing" I say worried I know he cared about her more that any other adult he treats her like a daughter.
"What" he said but then it looked like he had to convince himself not to care.
"That makes sense" he says and I look at him confused.
"How?" I ask.
"Because if she was actually asleep in there then she would have woken herself up by now screaming four times already, I don't know what that girl dreams about but it must be pretty bad and after Sophia it got worse" he shakes him head and I feel sick at the thought every single night she wakes up screaming? I shake the thought away.
"Do you know where she's gone?" I ask
"No I thought you where the one with the crush on her your meant to know things like that" Daryl laughed.
"Actually I might have an idea, she didn't come back from the funeral so knowing Luna and I don't know her well so don't assume I'm right but she probably went to find Hershel with your dad" Daryl says.
"My dad would never let her go she was a mess" I said Daryl shook his head.
"I don't think she asked" Daryl said and my jaw dropped because he was right she would do something like that. I go back to the house and Andrea yells at me for leaving.
"I know where Luna is Andrea don't you care!" I yell.
"Not at all she doesn't belong here" Andrea shook her head and I felt my blood boil. I walk away and find Lucas, me and Lucas only get along because of Luna so most of the time we hate each other but he's a mess he won't admit it but he is. I sit down and he randomly start talking about the most odd things.
"Remember how happy Sophia was when Luna came back?" He said looking at his hands he goes on like that for a while till we hear a car and we both run to see mum coming out of the car, with Shane behind her, I run outside tears in my eyes.
"Mum!" I yell jumping to her arms. Shane and her are angry about something and the word baby catches my attention.
"Your having a baby?" I ask and mum nods.
"Oh god I'm sorry we where waiting for the right time to tell you" mum says but the only thing that crosses my mind was.
"Does Luna know? because she said something.... That makes sense now" I say and mum nods, that explains why when I asked her if there was anything else I need to know and she said don't make me lie to you.
"Cool" I say still worried about Luna. I go and sit inside and watch for any sign of a car coming and after manny hours a car does come, I run to the porch and wait holding my breath Hershel and Glenn get out then dad and he goes to the back and pulls out a stranger but I don't care, I know people are saying things but I can't hear I just focus on the car and somewhere deep down I know that the girl inside the car is focused on me strait back, the adults took a guy named Randall inside he's bleeding but I don't care I'm too focused on the car. When I see her climb out of the car I smile widely.
"Luna!" I say running towards her, she looks pail and she has blood all over her, I hug her but she gasps in pain and moves away blinking tears from her eyes.
"What's wrong?" I ask worried, was she bit?
"Nothing's wrong I'm just tired" she says clenching her jaw so she doesn't scream out in pain. She keeps walking away from me and when I grab her arm to try to pull her back to me she flinches and pulls away further and then I notice the fresh blood on her shirt, I pull her hand away from her waist to see fresh blood and a hole in her shirt.
"Did you get bit?" I asked shocked and she shook her head and she started to look very unstable.
"I....I....I got shot" she says pulling back onto the car seat again.
"What! Why isn't Hershel looking at it he need to stop it from bleeding" I say frantically.
"He isn't fixing it cause he doesn't know it's there don't tell anyone" she says in pain.
"DAD!" I yell then turn back to her "I'm sorry" I say and she looks worse than before I looked away.
"What is it Carl we are really busy?" Dad asks.
"Luna got shot" I say quickly.
"What when?" Dad asks.
"When we thought Glenn got shot I ran into the alley to see if he was ok and the shit head in there got a sight on me" she groans in pain and her body goes limp.
"LUNA!" I scream.
"Carl get Hershel" dad yells at me as he frantically try's to check her pulse, I run into the house and find Hershel.
"Hershel Luna got shot, we need you" Hershel runs out of the house with me and so does almost everyone else.
"She passed out from blood loss" Hershel declares and dad carries her inside. I don't know what to do, if I go inside I will probably just be in the way but I don't want to stay out here doing nothing. I know what u should do, I run across the field to Daryl.
"You found her yet?" Daryl asks as he makes arrows out of sticks.
"Yeah but she's been shot" I say breathlessly, he drops the stick.
"What!" He says and I can tell he's worried.
"She didn't tell anyone until we got back to the farm and I noticed and told dad" I say and Daryl sighs.
"She is an idiot, is she ok?" Daryl asks and I shrug.
"I don't know she passed out from blood loss and they took her inside so I came over here to tell you" I say still breathless.
"She'll be fine" Daryl says "go see how there going" I nod and run back over to the house. When I walk in she's awake and Hershel is stitching her up and jimmy is giving her blood.
"Why wouldn't you tell anyone!" Dad yells at her.
"I was going to but then it all happened so fast, I made sure Glenn was ok and I didn't have time to see if I was ok because then that shit head in there jumped of the roof and got his leg through the spike. We didn't have time to worry about me and besides it's just a graze" she says and I roll my eyes.
"Sorry for passing out on you back there Carl" she smiles.
"It's ok just next time you get shot tell someone" I smile back at her.
"I'm kind of hoping there won't be a next time  but sure thing" she laughs but I can tell she's in pain.
"Getting shot isn't much fun is it tinckerbell?" Laughs Lucas as he walks into the room, I don't like the nickname he has given her.
"You can say that again" she says in pain.
"Almost done" Hershel says and she nods.
"There you go all done" Hershel tells her and she looks down at the stitches in her and frowns and storm away but Hershel stops her.
"Luna I'm sorry I had no right to say that, it wasn't me I was in shock" he says and she sighs and turns around.
"Hershel I don't think we understand each other very well" she says giving him a look that could kill, I can't help but wonder what happened.
"I know you where close to that lit-" Hershel says but she cuts him off.
"No I wasn't actually, I wasn't close with Sophia, she said I was her best friend but we didn't know each other very well" Luna's eyes start to fill with tears "but it's my fault she's gone it should have been me and I know that you where in shock but you said some things that where not a lie there is no hope Hershel" she says as tears fall onto her cheek and she turns away and walks out of the room I expect to hear the door slam but I don't because she turns back around and walks back into the room.
"I said I would kill you and I meant it, if you ever talk about someone I care about like that again or even talk to someone the way you talked to rick I will blow a hole in your head Hershel and I'm not going to care if your in shock or not" she then storms out of the house and I hear the door slam. I then hear Lucas leave the talk about his sister probably got to much for him.
"Oh my god why would she say that?" I ask Hershel shocked, I knew she was dark but this is a first besides threatening Shane but she had a reason to threaten Shane.
"It's not her fault she in shocks, she was just shot and I said something truly horrible back there. Carl can you keep an eye on her? She wants to hide it but the little girls death hit her harder than anyone in this group and I'm worried she will do something stupid and I don't just mean being reckless" Hershel says and I can tell he's worried about her and now so am I what did he mean?
"Ok....I can do that" I said stepping out of the living room but I wait in the doorway for a second.
"What do you think she's going to do Hershel?" I ask and I mentally brace myself for the answer.
"She said she gave up hope along time ago so by the sounds of it she could be depressed and she could do something to harm herself, I'm not saying she will but she could so just watch her" He says and I nod in shock as I run after her, I stumble across the field to her tent. Daryl isn't there he might have gone out hunting or something but he isn't here, I walk into her tent which was wide open to see Luna in the corner crying into her knees but what shocks me is that he holds her gun tightly in her hand. My breath catches in my throat as I walk towards her without making a sound. I put an arm around her an she flitches but doesn't look up to see who it is. I pull the gun out of her tight grip and pull her close.
"Luna what happened at the bar how did you get shot? and what did Hershel do?" I ask her and she stops crying maybe because she realised it was me.
"There was these two guys that came and it got ugly I shot one of them and rick shot one of them but then there friends turned up looking for them and it got uglier, Glenn ran out into an alley and and Hershel and I where covering him but a guy ran out of no where and shot at Glenn. I shot Him but then panicked and thought Glenn got shot so I ran into the alley and instead I got shot, I didn't tell anyone though and then that idiot with that we bought with us he was the one who shot me, he jumped of a roof and a spike from a fence went through his leg" she says and I can tell she's trying to hold in sobs.
"Why did you threaten Hershel?" I ask and she lets out one sob but quickly holds the rest in.
"Your dad said that he promised Maggie he would bring Hershel home safely and Hershel said" she clears her throat and starts impersonating Hershel "what like you promised that little girl" she let out another sob and I pull her closer.
"You know it's not your fault she's gone right?" I ask as she rocks back and forth slightly.
"It is Carl I left her, why would I do that?" She ask and finally brakes down and starts sobbing.
"You didn't leave her, Luna it's not your fault" I say looking at her in her clouded eyes.
"But I did" she sobs and I don't understand why she thinks it's her fault.
"It's not your fault, this has to stop you can't blame yourself for everything. Just because someone dies near you it doesn't mean it your fault, you where concussed you could have died! And you still blame yourself. Luna I wish I could make you see it, it's not your fault your family died I know you haven't told me yet but it's not your fault your a good person, we are the good guys" I say and she looks away from me and shakes her head.
"I'm not a good person Carl" she cries.
"Yes you are Luna and I need you to know that and it doesn't matter what happened with your family weather it was a dumb mistake or of you meant it, it doesn't mater" I say and I want to yell it but I don't want to hurt her at all.
"Carl don't even start about my family you have no idea what happened" she shakes her head again.
"Because you won't tell me" I say and she takes a deep breath.
"Why do you want to know so much?" She snaps but I know she's just being defensive because she doesn't like to talk about her family.
"Because it's eating you up and if I knew why I could tell you that it's not your fault" I tell her and she laughs a little.
"Carl I killed them there is no way you can change that" She sobs shaking her head.
"Well what happened then?" I ask her and she freezes.
"I can't explain it all they didn't die at the same time" she shakes her head tears still rolling from her face.
"Well I've got all day. Just tell me the short version" I shrug.
"Carl.....I don't know if I can tell you" she let's out another sob.
"Just....try. Let's be open with each other" I say, I don't want to push her into telling me but its the only way. She pushes some hair from her face and something catches my attention, a scar runs from one side of her forehead to the other.
"How did you get that?" I ask pointing to the scare.
"It doesn't matter" she says and I realise she has stopped crying.
"Luna you have to be honest, let's play a game I ask you a question and then you ask me a question" I say sitting in front of her with my legs crossed.
"So you can go first, you can ask me anything and I have to answer truthfully.
"Have you lost anyone before that you where close to?" She asks.
"No, not besides Sophia." I said and she nodded.
"Ok now it's my turn to ask you a question." I say and she frowns lightly.
"How did you get that scare on your head?" I ask and she swallows hard.
"My uncle" she answers simply and shrugs.
"What did your uncle do?" I ask and she smiles.
"It's my turn remember" she smiles and I roll my eyes.
"Fine what's your question" I smile back.
"Was Shane always like that?" She asks and my smile fades.
"No he wasn't something changed him, he was different when he came back from the run with Otis and you" I sigh.
"Ok my turn what did your uncle do?" I ask but I don't know if I want to hear the answer.
"He...um abused me" she looks down at her hand and my mouth drops. I see a single tear drop from her cheeks but no more.
"Oh my god wha-" I start but she cuts me off.
"No stop it's my turn to ask you a question" she says looking up at me again.
"Why are you trying so hard to save me?" She ask
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"You want to convince me it's not my fault but it is the thing I don't understand it why are you trying so hard to save a girl with no hope" she says and I don't know why she would say this.
"I care about you, I don't want you to get hurt" I say and she sighs.
"It's my turn and my question is why do you care so much?" She sighs.
"Your my friend I just don't want to see you like this" I say and she looks away from me.
"What ever Carl it's your turn" she says getting defensive again.
"What did your uncle do for you to get that scar?" I swallow hard.
"He pushed me into a shelf and it split my head open" she sighs and I feel sick.
"Oh my god" I whisper "it's your turn" I say louder this time.
"So you found out your mums pregnant?" She asks and I nod.
"Did you live with your uncle?" I ask and she shakes her head.
"No I lived at my cousins a lot because my uncle lived with my mum and dad but me and my sisters would spend some holidays with my parents and uncle and let just say that way to often would my mum come home from work and me and Tara were unconscious on the living room floor and jasmine was hiding under her bed" she sighs and I feel sick.
"So your uncle didn't abuse your other sister?" I ask and she sighs.
"It's my turn to ask the question" she points out.
"I don't care I'm not playing anymore" I say looking her in the eyes.
"So how manny sisters do you have?" I ask and she swallows.
"I had" she says loudly "I had two sisters that where older than me, they where twins and sixteen when they died" she sighs.
"And they were jasmine and Tara?" I ask and she nods "so why didn't your uncle abuse Jasmine?" I ask in confusion.
"She was to scared to stand up to him so he never touched her" she sighed. I can't believe this and she didn't even think to tell me this no wonder she hates talking about her family, all the family she loved had died and she blames herself for that and the rest of her family didn't sound to good.
"Do you want to tal-" she cuts me off.
"Are you seriously going to ask me that, do you want to braid each other's hair while your at it" she laughs and I can tell she tries to roll her eyes but she can't.
"This is a stupid game" she whispers but I can tell she's sad.
"No it's not" I say and she looks up at me "I feel like I know you but I know nothing about you" I say and she laughs a little bit.
"There's nothing to know about me ok Carl" she snaps.
"Well obviously there is Luna, please just one more question" I say as she get up and she's about to walk out.
"What Carl?" She sighs.
"What happened to your family?" I ask and without looking at me she answers.
"That is four questions" she say but turns and sits down again.
"Well what happened?" I ask and she thinks for a second.
"I'll tell you if you promise me something" she smirks.
"What do I have to promise?" I ask and she keeps smirking.
"I'll tell you after" she sighs.
"What do you want to know?" She asks and I don't hesitate to answer.
"How did your family die?" I ask and she takes a deep breath to prepare herself.
"Who do you want to hear first" she said and she sounded like she was about to start crying again.
"Luna you don't ha-" she cuts me off.
"Who first?" She ask taking another deep breath.
"Umm start from the beginning where were you when this started?" I ask but I'm starting to feel bad for asking.
"Umm when it started it wasn't that big of a deal everyone just thought it would blow over but then it got worse and my mum and dad turned all the TV and radios off and we knew something was wrong" she said quietly wiping away her first tear. "Me and my sister Tara snuck down into the basement because there was a old TV that my parents had forgotten about and of corse Jasmine didn't come she was to worried that we would get in to trouble. So Umm we our uncle came down and Umm..... You know he beat us up and then mum came in and told him to get out of the house then told us to pack our shit. I don't know where we were meant to be going but Atlanta got bombed and we hid a building till we ran out of food and then me and mum went to a shopping centre and-" she let's out a sob and I can tell this will be where her mum dies.
"We where looking and four guys came in, they raped my mum and told me I would be next, they had tied me to a pole and I couldn't help her" she sobbed again as I look at her in shock "I listened to my mum cry and scream for help, after a while dad came to see what was going on and he saved me but it was to late for my mum" she sobs.
"Did they....." I ask and she shakes her head but I can tell there's something she is not telling me.
"Then I had to tell my sisters what had happened because my dad was in shock he wouldn't talk or eat or drink he just sat there staring into space and then my uncle found us and he beat me and Tara until we where unconscious. That went on for about two weeks until Tara pushed my uncle Into a walker and that was good bye Philip. The next person to die was my sister Tara, I was being noise and there had been a lot of human activity around that part of Atlanta so we were being quiet and sneaking but I wouldn't shut up and a sniper got my sister. Then it was Jasmine, I was on watch and I got distracted and some walkers snuck past and...and" she take a second to steadily her breathing "I heard my dad scream for help and I ran in as fast as possible, when I got into the room my dad was against a wall with a walker or two trying to get at him but my sister she was just sitting there while a walker took a bite out of her neck" she let out another sob "the next day I woke up to a note on the table that said something like, you are a monster I can't be near you, you killed all of them it's all your fault and if I ever see you again I will kill you. That's what my dad said to me, he left me alone in Atlanta" she started to sob uncontrollably and I don't blame her.
"I made it a mission to find him and when I did I shot him in the heart with a arrow and then I was alone I didn't see another human until your group, the closet thing I got was to people was the guy in the CDC who thought I was a walker of corse I never saw him but I saw the cameras move" she tries to calm herself.
"Luna none of that was your fault" I tell her still sitting in front of her face to face.
"All of it is Carl, all of it" she sobbed.
"Its not" I argue.
"Do you want to know the promise?" Luna ask I nod.
"Promise me that you will not get angry at me for doing this" she says and I look at her confused, what did she mean?
"What do you-" she cuts me off by pressing her lips to mine. I don't even know why, I mean I didn't think she liked me in the same way that I liked her. I know I feel a lot of things confusion, happiness but anger is not one of them. She pulls away and I look at her confused but she just looks at me in sadness.
"Sorry" she says sitting back down across from me.
"I..why....don't be sorry" I say finally finding my words, she then smiles slightly.
"Is it my turn to ask you a question?" She asks smiling at her hands.
"Well did you want me to do that?" She asks smiling. My heart is beating faster in my chest and I don't know what else to do but to nod.
"I mean thats not why I followed you or anything but I....I like you" I admit and she smiles even more than before which I didn't think was possible.
"So you shot someone at the bar?" I and she nods emotionlessly and I look at her with shock and she sighs.
"What did you expect Carl? I'm  dark and I know you see it two I have killed five people Carl, five and I don't take it back I don't even care anymore I killed two people at the bar, two and I didn't even think about it's because they where nothing to me, I don't know them and there nothing to me and now they just two dead shit head who where in the wrong place at the wrong time" she says and she's right I do know she's dark but I understand why being in Atlanta for that long on your own has to have its side affects.
"You can be fixed" I smile at her and she smiles back.
"You don't know that" she says but her smile fades.
"Can you promise me something else?" She smiles and I nod.
"Considering your last promise was so easy to keep" I smile.
"Promise that no mater how much I push you away you won't leave?" She asks and I nod.
"I promise" I say and she leans in and kisses me again.