The darkest path, the walking dead

Chapter 8: concussed

Chapter 8

"Sophia stop, ricks going to kill the walkers" I say breathlessly but she doesn't listen she just keeps running and sobbing, the further I chase Sophia into the woods the more I wonder if we will get back tonight but no matter what I will not leave Sophia. I can tell rick is running behind me but he can't catch us and I can't get Sophia to slow down. Rick sprints forwards going around and grabbing Sophia from in front of her. She reaches down to trying to grab ricks gun, she starts sobbing even louder.
"Shoot them, shoot them" she cries hugging her doll tight to her side.
"Sophia you have to listen to me if we shoot them all the walkers back on the highway will come and then there will be hundreds" I warn her. She sods again but nods. Rick scoops her up into his arms and I run alone side them. I suddenly realise something I left my knife and bow back at the high way under the car and I still have my gun which I can't shoot because of the walkers on the highway. Oh shit this can't end well; I follow them till we reach a creek, rick points to a hole in the side of the creek.
"Stay here I'll be back for you when I take care of the walkers." Rick says putting Sophia down.
"No don't leave me" she cries.
"Sophia remember when I promised you I would always protect you well that's what I'm going to do, I'm going to protect you with my life, ok?" I tell her and she nods as she turned to climb in the hole. Rick was about to leave when we turns and says.
"If you need to leave keep the sun on your left shoulder" he says and splashes the walkers with the water in the creek
"Come on" he says turning and almost falling over. He keeps repeating come on as he runs out of the creek. I want to help rick but I know I have to stay with Sophia. Sophia and I crouch in the hole as we watch two walkers stumbles after rick through the water. Sophia sobs quietly to herself as we wait for rick to come back.
"It's going to be ok Sophia, we are going to be back with your mum and brother soon" I say to her. She stops crying and looks at me with a slight smile.
"You are my best friend Luna I'm so glad you decided to come back" she hugs me and I wipe away her tears.
"I'm so glad I'm back too and I'm so glad we are friends I think you are the only friend I've really had in like eight months." I smile at her and her eyes wonder into the distance.
"It's a walker we have to go" she gasps.
"Sophia no don't we need to stay here and wait for rick." I say as she stumbles out of the hole. Oh no this is not going to end well.
"Come on Luna, rick said keep the sun on our left shoulder" she says hurrying out of the hole. I run after her, we ran like that with the sun on our left shoulders until we hear a stick crack in front of us, I turn to Sophia but she's already running from the sound, I run after her until I realise I am starting to get dizzy and I'm not sure why, I feel sick and I want to sit down but I can't I have to find Sophia. I have a massive headache and I feel like I'm going to puke, I also feel very tied and dizzy. I am now just focusing on staying on my feet but I fail I end up on the ground in the leaves and I'm finding it quite funny at this point I mean I'm lying on the ground when I'm meant to be chasing a little girl and to put the cherry on top a flesh eating monster could come any time now and have a nice meal, I sit up as the world spins and flips like I'm on a crazy out of control roller coaster, I turn my head to the side a little and puke up anything I've eaten in the last forty-eight hours, my head is now aching and I am determined to find Sophia again. I push myself to my feet as I try to walk in a straight line. There is now two of what I should be seeing which gets very confusing when I trying to decide which tree I can walk though. I'm finding it hard to step in any directions now I stopped trying to walk in a straight line when there because two straight lines I could follow and now I'm wondering around in all direction probably doing five circles before I got anywhere.
I feel arms wrap around the back of me and I scream and keep screaming until the arms turn me around so I can see rick and I guy with a crossbow but even when I know it's not a walker I keep screaming.
"Let me go!" I scream when they pick me up so they put me back down on my feet.
"Are you drunk Luna?" Rick asks.
"I seriously don't know" I say rick and Mr Crossbow exchange a look.
"I think we need to get her back to the group now" Mr Crossbow says.
"Don't talk about me like I'm not here Mr Crossbow" I say with a giggle.
"This is the girl Carl likes" Mr Crossbow asks as if I wasn't there again, rick nods.
"Hey don't talk about me like I'm not- wait carl likes me what do you mean?" I ask falling over again.
"Is she usually like this?" Mr Crossbow asks.
"Not at all, she is kind of like you the way she doesn't like people" rick asks.
"I like people" Mr Crossbow mumbles under his breath
"Don't talk about me like I'm not here" I say again.
"Oh trust me sweetheart I don't think your all there right now" Mr Crossbow says, I laugh a little and then gasp as my head starts to hurt again.
"Have you have any head injuries in the last week?" Mr Crossbow asks and I nod.
"I got hit by a car and them I crashed a car" I tell them not sure  what that has to do with anything, they both nod as Mr Crossbow picks me up again.
"NO YOU NEED TO FIND SOPHIA LEAVE ME" I scream
"You will die if we leave you" rick says.
"NO ONE WILL CARE; I HAVE NO ONE TO LIVE FOR SAVE SOPHIA SHE STILL HAS A FAMILY TO LIVE FOR!" I yell as I kick in every direction.
"Luna I'm n-" rick starts but I cut him off.
"RICK I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK YOUR NOT GOING TO WAIST YOUR TIME ON ME" they both look at me sympathetically but then rick grabs my arms and Mr Crossbow grabs my legs
"NO PLEASE" I cry.
"SOPHIA! SOPHIA!" I yell and cry at the same time and then it all gets cloudy and after a second it goes black. I wake up again just as we get back on the highway but I keep my eyes closed, I'm really worried that carol is going to yell at me for leaving her daughter, oh god Sophia how could I leave her!
"Oh my god what happened to her" Lucas says I can hear a hint of worry in his voice.
"Was she bitten" I can hear a lot of worry in the next voice, they think I'm still unconscious.
"Nar she's just got a concussion" Mr Crossbow says.
"You only found her not Sophia!" Carol yell and I feel sick at the comment.
"If it makes you feel any better carol she would have had a higher chance of dying out there than Sophia and she's still alive" rick says.
"And besides she wanted us to leave her for the walkers and go find Sophia" Mr Crossbow says and I can tell his eyes are on me maybe he knows I am listening.
"Come on put her in the RV" Carl says. I feel them put me on the bed and they go out of the RV and I hope they are going to find Sophia. Now it just me and Carl.
"I know you're awake" Carl whispers in my eye making me smile.
"But I don't want to say anything because I will make an idiot of myself again" I say opening my eyes.
"Want did you say before to Daryl and my dad?" Carl asks and I don't want to answer that question, he doesn't need to know I want to die..... Be free I mean.
"It doesn't matter Carl" I whisper.
"Yeah it does, did you really want them to leave you?" Carl says with a worried expression.
"It doesn't matter" I shrug. Carl sighs and turns to walk out of the RV.
"No don't go" I grab his arm.
"Then tell me what happened" He smirks and he sits.
"They found me, I couldn't even walk in a straight line and then they tried to take me back but I yelled and screamed........because I wanted to help find Sophia" I lie but he believes it.
"It's all my fault" my voice cracking.
"Hey don't say that, it's not your fault" I move over on the bed and Carl lies next to me as I put my head on his chest. Carl said that I used to push him away and I don't want to remember that I don't want to push him away again this feels like the best thing that's ever happened to me even if I can't remember everything that has happened to me.
"Do you get memory loss from concussion" I ask looking up at his eyes, he nods.
"Then I don't ever want this concussion to heal" I smile, Carl laughs a little and nods.
"Things as so easy when I'm unaware of what has happened to me" I say and he nods again in agreement.
"I miss your smart mouth though" he smirks.
"Trust me I never lost that" I smile up at him.
"I wish it could always be like this" I sigh and he looks a little hurt by my comment.
"Why can't it?" he says with a confused expression
"We both know that if I get my memory back things will go back to me being unable to get close to people" I frown and so does he.
"Then just simply promise you won't" he says and I nod.
"I mean how hard can it be to just not push you away" I say sitting up.
"What are you doing?" He asks as I get off the bed.
"We are no help in here and I'm feeling better now" I'm not lying I do feel a lot better than before, I don't feel like I'm going to puke anymore and my headache has almost gone. Carl follows close behind me. It's almost dark when we exit the RV, Carol is sitting on the railing crying with Lori on one side and a blonde haired lady that I don't think I've seen before on the other.
"Sit here I'll be back I'm going to ask what's going on" Carl says and I nod but he should know I don't like doing what people tell me to. When Carl walks after rick I stumble toward Carol, Lori and the blonde haired girl.
"I'm so sorry" I say to Carol.
"This is all your fault" Carol cries.
"I'm so sorry but that was not my fault" I say even know I'm starting to think it is my fault.
"Yes it is your fault! How could you just leave her and let her run off into the woods on her own?" She sobs. I don't know what to say.
"Why would you leave her" the blonde haired girl yells in disgust.
"I..I didn't, she ran away from me I couldn't catch her" I say my voice cracking.
"I told her to stay away from Carl the first time I saw her I knew she was trouble" Lori spits, my eyes start to water as someone grabs me from behind, Glenn.
"What is your problem" Glenn says to the three lady's as he leads me away.
"Are you ok?" He asks me examining my face, I just nod but we both know it's a lie but before Glenn could say anything Carl pulls me into a hug.
"What happened?" He asks Glenn which is good because I don't think I can speak without bursting into tear.
"Lori, carol and Andrea happened" Glenn says. Andrea must be the blonde girl's name.
"They were telling her it was her fault" Glenn sighs.
"It's not your fault Luna" Carl says letting me go, I look at the ground and don't say anything.
"Come on, you guys should get some sleep" A musclier man walks over.
"Yes Shane" says Carl without hesitation.
"I'll see you in the morning" Carl say walking me to the RV, I nod still looking at the ground as I climb up the stairs. Carl walks away as I go sit on the bed, I can't lay here and sleep knowing Sophia is out there on her own. I promised I would protect her. I grab my bow and arrows which Carl must have put in here after I chased Sophia of into the woods and I put my knife in my boot which was with my bow and arrows. I walk out of the RV and an old guy sits on top.
"Hey where are you going" he say, I look at him for a second but then shrug and walk into the woods, I look back to see the old guy climbing down the latter. I walk about thirty second before I'm interrupted by a voice.
"I hope you know that we are not going to find her in the dark" a know it all voice says, I turn to see Daryl.
"It better than hoping she finds her way back in the middle of the night" I snap at him.
"What's up your ass?" He mumble.
"Sorry I've just had a really shit day" I mutter and Daryl nods.
"Yeah I heard about what carol, Andrea and Lori said they had no right to say any of that, it's not your fault" he says with a little sympathy in his voice.
"Then why do I feel like shit" I sigh.
"Well feeling like shit isn't going to find this little girl" he points out and I nod. It's a good thing he came because I forgot to bring a torch and it would have been very hard to see anything. It is pitch black in the woods at night.
"I know feeling like shit doesn't help but I still feel like shit. I promised her I would always protect her and I wasn't there for her" I sigh.
"That wasn't your job to protect her and from what I've heard you where the first one to chase her into the wood with no weapons and no way to fight of the walkers, don't beat yourself up over it because you did more than the three people who say it was your fault. Carol says it's your fault but I didn't see her jumping into the woods to find her little girl no she left it up to a...like twelve your old and rick." He says making me smile a little.
"I'm thirteen...I think" I mumble.
"And you act like your twenty, your braver than most of those pricks back at camp" he mutters and I smirk.
"Thanks" I say smiling.
"And another reason not to feel bad over it, it's not like you just decided not to protect her you were barely conscious on the ground" he laughs and so do I. We look silently up and down the only thing we would say is quietly yelling Sophia's name until Daryl yawns.
"Aren't you tired?" Daryl asks. I shrug and shake my head.
"I was in Atlanta on my own for five months, I didn't really get much sleep at all" I tell him and Daryl nods.
"Fair enough" he mumbles. Daryl acts like he is so tough but I know he would do anything for this group..