The Magnetic: Loving The Torturer

Chapter 33

Chapter 33: Unaffected

"I heard it's getting serious already. Lagi na silang nakikitang magkasama. As in lantad na talaga! They are so bagay naman, diba?"

"Of course! Kate Inosensio is so pretty! Bagay sila ni Inaki."

Napatigil ako sa pagbubukas ng locker ko sa narinig.

"So it's true na wala na sila ni Raigne?"

"Yeah, I think so! She's so ilusyunada naman kasi no! Did she really think that Inaki would take her seriously? I mean, hello! Duh!"

Napapikit na lang ako ng mariin ng marinig ang tawanan nila.

"How stupid can she get? Siyempre Inaki San Diego yon! Why would he settle for her?"

"As if!"

"Napaka-ilusyunada!"

I took a deep breath and shoved my books inside my locker. Mas lumaki ang issue tungkol sa hiwalayan namin ni Inaki dahil madalas na makitang magkasama sila ng bago niya. But none of us bothered to confirm the break up.

Sa school ay ako na lang lagi ang laman ng topic nila. Some people pity me. And some secretly laugh at my misery. I just don't get them. Wala silang alam tungkol sa amin ni Inaki. And they don't have the slighted idea how much he has hurt me or how painful it is for me. Pero bakit kung makapagbitaw sila ng mga komento ganon-ganon na lang? Anong alam nila?

I should get used to this.

Ako na ang biktima pero ako pa ang lumalabas na masama. Ako na yung niloko pero ako pa yung nasasabihan ng mga masasakit na salita!

"I bet she cries herself to sleep every night."

"I think so, too."

"So pathetic!"

"Ang sakit sigurong masampal ng katotohanan na isa ka lang palang ilusyunada!"

Oh God. Why can't they stop? Huminga ako ng malalim at isinara ang locker ko. Ayoko ng masaktan. Pumihit ako at humarap sa mga nagtatawanan na biglang natigilan ng mapansin ako. I know them. They're my classmates. Sila rin yung kunwaring concern sa akin na tinanong pa ko kung okay lang ba ko. Plastik!

Calm down, Raigne. Don't stoop down to their level. They're just a bunch of know it all hypocrites! They know nothing!

"Oh. Hi Raigne!"

I almost rolled my eyes. Ang plastik! Itinaas ko lang ang sulok ng labi ko at tumalikod na.

"Did she hear kaya?"

"So what if she heard us? It's true naman no!"

I breathed out harshly. Bigla akong pumihit at binalikan sila. Bigla na naman silang natahimik.

"Yes, I heard everything." I said.

"Uhm, Raigne-"

"Do you want to know if I cry myself to sleep at night?" Nagtinginan sila pero walang sumagot. "I see. None of you have the guts to voice out your stupid questions. But to satisfy your curiosity: no, I don't. I ain't stupid to do that."

One of them, cleared her throat. "We were just exchanging opinions, Raigne. Wala naman sigurong masama kung magpakatotoo kami." She said, tilting her chin up.

I smiled patronizingly at her. "Of course, Bea. Walang masama sa pagpapakatotoo. As long as you don't make yourself look stupid by saying things na di mo dapat sinasabi dahil wala kang alam."