The Magnetic: Loving The Torturer

Chapter 17

Chapter 17: Pain of the past 

 

 

Bitterness filled my heart as I was watching the showbiz news which was about Inaki and his new girl. Apparently, the girl is an actress, a rising star. The reporter even asked about me but he refused to answer any of their questions.

Thankfully, mom doesn’t ask me about him even though I am pretty sure she has heard about the news. I turned off the TV and picked up my phone. I want to talk to him so bad but I know it is not fair for me anymore. He has hurt me a lot of times. I should put an end to my stupidity and just move on.

“Raigne?”

“Mom.”

Di ko napansin ang paglapit ni mommy. She sat down beside me. Good thing I had already turned off the TV. “Your dad called me again. He wants to see you. Kailan mo ba siya bibisitahin?”

Truth is, I don’t want to go to dad’s house which he shares with his new family. Seeing their happy  complete family is like a slap to my face. A reminder that I won’t ever have a complete family again. However, with everything that’s been going on in my life, I need to get away.

“Fine. I’ll go there tomorrow.”

She smiled. “Great. I’m sure your dad will be very happy.” I sometimes wonder how mom can be okay with all of this. Sure, she already has a boyfriend but I still don’t get it how she deals with this.

“You sure it’s okay if I stay with dad and his new f-family?”

“Of course, sweetheart. Your dad misses you a lot.”

I nodded. “All right.”

“I honestly think a time away from what’s happening right now is what you need.” I just sighed and nodded.

Three hours of driving and body aches. Sana pala nagpa-drive na lang ako. But a time alone is what I need. This is my time for myself. Why do I have this feeling that going to my dad’s house is not the right place to think and mend my broken heart?

After another hour, I have arrived at my dad’s place. His house is very big. Binuksan agad ng guard ang gate para maipasok ko na ang car ko. For a moment, I hesitated. I thought about driving back to manila but I knew it was too late to change my mind because dad already saw me. Sinalubong niya ako ng mahigpit na yakap.

“My baby!”

“Dad.” It was a bit awkward for me. We used to be close. I used to be a daddy’s girl but after he married his secretary, I sort of found myself getting distant from him. I stopped spending my vacation with him. Hanggang siya na lang ang bumibisita sa akin. Pero kahit anong gawin ni dad di ko na magawang ibalik ang closeness namin. He tried so hard but I just couldn’t find it in me to act like he didn’t get married at all.

Yung pakiramdam na pinalitan na niya kami sa buhay niya ay di ko matanggap. Ilang taon na kong di nakakapunta dito. “I missed you.” His voice filled with longing. His eyes even became watery. Nag-init ang sulok ng mga mata ko. I knew it. Coming here was a bad idea. I took a deep breath after blinking back my tears. “How are you, anak?”

“I’m great, dad. You?”

“I am great now that you’re here. Buti at napagbigyan mo na rin ako, anak. Ang tagal mo ng di bumibisita dito.” He enveloped me in his arms again and kissed the top of my head. I cleared my throat and moved away from him.

“Everything looks the same as before.” I said, trying to find something else to talk about.

“Yes, this place is well maintained. Your tita Marissa makes sure of that. We both know how much you love this place.”