The Magnetic: Loving The Torturer

Chapter 41

Chapter 41: A cell called Inaki

I'm so stupid! Why did I let him kiss me again!? Why the hell did I give in!? I'm still madly in love with him. Pakiramdam ko ay nanghina ako sa realisasyon na iyon. No, I can't let myself be stupid again. I've been through a lot of pain because of him. I can't keep on loving him. I was about to open my car when someone suddenly held my arm.

"Inaki!"

"Raigne, please let's talk."

"No! I don't wanna talk to you again!" I tried to shake his arm off but he wouldn't let go. "Ano ba! Let go!"

"I just wanna talk to you, Raigne!"

"Don't you understand? Ayoko ng kausapin ka pa!"

He took me by surprise when he suddenly pulled me in his arms. My eyes widened. I have this overwhelming feeling of hugging him back but the sane part of me, brought me back to my senses. I tried to push him away but he wouldn't even budge!

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything, Raigne. I am so, so sorry."

Tumigil ako sa pagpalag. I was totally stunned. He said 'sorry'. He doesn't say 'sorry'. He's not a big fan of that word. Humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin. I blinked back the tears and looked up to the starless sky. 

"Let go, Inaki." I muttered.

He shook his head. "That was the biggest mistake I have ever done in my whole life... letting you go."

He's finally saying the words that I've wanted to hear from him. I wanted him so bad to regret hurting me. Letting go of me. Pero bakit ngayong sinasabi na niya ay wala akong makapang kasiyahan? Bakit pangungulila at sakit pa rin ang nararamdaman ko?

"You don't know what you're saying. You're just drunk, Inaki." I said coldly.

Humiwalay siya sa akin at sinapo ang mukha ko ng mga kamay niya. He looked into my eyes. Pero di ko nakayanan ang nakikita ko sa mga mata niya kaya umiwas ako ng tingin. 

"Look at me, Raigne. I'm not drunk. I know what I'm doing." He leaned his forehead against mine. "I want you back."

Bigla akong nakaramdam ng galit. I pushed him away and slapped him. He looked shocked. He probably didn't expect that. God. I'm shaking with so much anger!

"How dare you say that." Mariing sabi ko. "How dare you say that to my face when it was you who tore us apart! Where the f*ck do you get the audacity to stand in front of me and say those words!? Huh!?" Hinampas ko siya sa dibdib. "Answer me! Answer me!"

I hit his chest repeatedly but he didn't even try to stop me. He just stood there and let me hit him until I stopped and broke down in front of him. Para akong kandilang unti-unting nauupos. Napaupo na lang ako sa semento at inilabas ang lahat ng sakit at pait na nararamdaman ko dahil sa kanya.

"Raigne..." 

He sat on his heels then pulled me in his arms.  I tried to push him away but again he wouldn't let go. Instead, he tightened his hold on me. 

"I hate you! I hate you... Let me go!"

"Hush... hush." 

He buried his face in my hair and just hugged me. Tumigil din ako sa pagtulak sa kanya. It's no use. He wouldn't let go. Bakit ganito? Siya ang dahilan ng lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon pero bakit siya lang din ngayon ang nakakapag-kalma sa akin.