September 21, 2015
You're hopelessly scared. No matter how many times you've told yourself to be okay, you know, it's never been easy. No matter how hopeful you've become, at some point of believing, you feel like you're getting emptier.
You keep on staring at the blank paper, written with tears. And as how those liquids invaded its fragile surface, you just realize that nothing seems right.
You have feard of watching how your world shatters, how pain lives in your heart, and how dreams are turning into dust. Those scary thoughts make you a coward...gradually. You're weak. You're stupid. You think life is never that beautiful. You even begin to believe pains can be cured through dying.
Logic doesn't exist when you're drowning. Love is been covered by deep agonies. Poignant smiles capture in your lips, as your lifeless eyes is like a footprints to your silent grave.
You're hugging yourself so tight, it hurts. Your heart is heavy and painful. In your gloomy room, you let your fears crawl into your body. You let your darkness lurks in your soul. You wish to fade away. Just like that, you wish to disappear...
Completely..
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You're nothing but selfish. You have forgotten those things that you want to fight. You overheard those knockings at your door. Do not let your sadness commands you to be who you're not. Do not let your fears decide who you will be.
Screw life. Live.
It's not about how you plan it perfectly, but it's about how you deal life after it screwed you.
Yes, life is a bitch. You have to deal with it. When things have gone wrong, you should focus on your strenghts.
It is your own battle within. You have to win. Whatever happens, you have to.
