Repost:
October 1, 2013
Dear Soul Breaker,
For all those times that we shared together, I can say that there are moments that are unforgettable too. Memories we have we’ll be there even the nightmares you gave to me.
I must say that you are the only one who gave me too much pain and sufferings.
You are the one who took all my dreams and left me nothing but hatred.
You came into my life when I needed someone to talk to, to listen with my dramas, and to save me from my despair. You were there that time and I was very glad to know that someone really could accept me despite of everything I’ve been through.
That was the reason why I let you love me.
Sorry for being stupid. I didn’t know what was coming. I didn’t know that from the start, everything was a lie about you. You lied about your family background, your status, your stories, your past experiences, and even I guessed, that the love you gave to me was a lie as well.
Those times that I fell into your trap, I kept on asking, how could you?
I gave you my life, my heart, and even my soul but you still hurt me in the end. I fought for you because I thought you’re real, but I was wrong. You’re the reason why my dreams were shattered and I lost my freedom, but still I chose you….and you betrayed me.
I should have cursed you but I didn’t.
And it’s been a year since we walked on different paths. No matter what happen, even if you just played on me, you are still a part of my past that I can’t erase. Don’t act as if you’re the victim now because you made that choice alone.
I know, you know that I was not really inlove with you like having a spark into my eyes. I was attached because you gave me that feeling that you can be my knight. Forever protecting me…But the fact that I let you be part of my life, be my man forever, and planning for a wedding someday with you and it didn’t happen because you chose to cheat and be the most idiot man I’ve ever known, it wounded me before.
And now, I’m happy now that I am officially free from your shadows.
Thank you for that because you gave me my freedom back.
And now, I am living with happiness with no problem at all.
Thank you for the broken heart, you are not my last. Someday, someone will come along in the right place and time…a man that I can be proud of. A man who can love the most precious girl in my life too…
Thank you for the pain, now I know the essence of life is.
I know now my worth, a worth that you just threw like a thrash before.
Thank you, for you opened up my eyes that someone like you really does exist—a man of pretending.
And now, I will not give my all again to someone like you.
Ever.
Whenever the day comes that we’ll cross each others’ path, I can now look you in the eyes with no hatred or pain. Because to me, you are just a part of my meaningful past…
Thank you for being part of my life.
I hope someday you’ll change for the better.
I hope someday, someone will come along with you too and save you in hell. You know I tried that before but you didn’t want to be saved. Instead, you put me in hell as well.
I guess this will be my last letter for you.
I know I was not the perfect woman before, but God… I tried to be your perfect girlfriend. I even forget who I am and what I am. For you, I did everything.
But still, past is past.
You made me put you in the past.
I let go.
I move on.
I live my life the way I want.
And I thank you for that.
"Because if it wasn’t for you… I wouldn’t be here…
Lessons learned and love will never remain…"
- Your Fragile Past
