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Miscarage/Self harm (niall) *Long*

"What do you mean she's gone!" Niall screamed at the doctor, as you laid on the table in shock.

"I'm so sorry Mr. Horan. Sometimes these things just happen. I'll give you two a minute."
The doctor said leaving the room.

You were lying on your back staring at the ceiling, trying to process what just happened. Silent tears rolling down your face as your husband sat next you.

"Princess, we will try again okay? And-and maybe it just wasn't the right time."
You didn't answer, not trusting your voice to talk.
"Let's go babe" he said through sniffling.
He grabbed your hand and sat you up, that's when everything came crashing down.

"Niall that was our little girl! She's gone!" You sobbed leaning into his chest.

"I know babe, I know" he said kissing your forehead. " We are going to get through this okay?" He said, his voice cracking at the end. You nodded still not trusting your voice.
He led you to the car.

*10 minutes later*

You pulled into the drive way, and came to a stop.
He opened your car door, and led you to the steps.

"I'm going to go make dinner ok baby?"
He said opening the front door.

You nodded walking up the stairs to the room you thought would bring you the most joy.

As you sat down on the pink rug you & Niall had just picked out last week, you grabbed the blanket hanging off the crib.
You let out a straggled sob as you laid on the ground, hugging the blanket.

"(Y/n)!" You heard Niall yell from downstairs.
You herd footsteps coming up the stairs, and looked up as the door was pushed open.
You continued sobbing as Niall sat down next to you and pulled you into his chest.
"Shhh darling it's okay."

"No it's not Niall! She gone. Our own daughter. We will never get to see her graduate, never walk her down the aisle, or watch her fall in love."

"I know babe. I know." He said, silent tears now coming down his face.
You guys stayed like this for about a half hour, hugging each other, crying in what was supposed to be your daughters bedroom.

Niall stood up, helping you to your feet.
He walked you to your bedroom and laid you down on the bed.
"Go to sleep okay, you need it."
You nodded and rolled over facing the wall.
He put the comforter over you and walk out, slowly shutting the door.

*Dream*

You woke up, the light shining through the window.
You looked over and the bed was empty.
"Niall?" You croaked.
You threw your legs over the side of the bed, standing up.
You walked to the door and opened it, something was different, your house was...still. Immediately you hear crying, not just any cry but a baby's cry. You gasped and followed the noise.

It lead you to the nursery,You walked in and saw Niall, his back was to you.
When he heard you, he turned around.
He smiled a grimace smile, and started walking toward you.

"Hi y/n" he said staring at you and walking toward you.
"This is our daughter" you looked in the small blanket he was holding, and saw nothing.
"Niall there's nothing there" you say, holding back the tears.

"That's the point" he said smirking.
"She gone forever and it's your fault."

You woke up in the dark, you looked over and saw Niall laying beside you.
You quickly got up heading to the bathroom, putting a hand over you mouth holding in a sob.

You shut the door turning on the light and falling to the floor.
You haven't cut since you were 14, but the thought did cross your mind.

You quickly got up looking for a razor, you could barley see from from the tears.
You were pulling things off the shelf looking for anything.
You could hear things falling on the floor but you didn't care.
You started scratching your arm until there was blood.

You tried to feel anything but the pain.

You sobbed as blood was rolling down your arm; you finally gave up on finding the razor and slip down the wall onto the floor.
And this is how Niall found you. Laying on the floor scratching your skin open, sobbing.

"Y/n open the damn door" he yelled for the 6th time.
You didn't answer.

"Y/n God damn it I'm breaking down the door! Watch out."
You heard him say through the door.
After 3 hits the door came in, he gasped when he saw you.

"Y/n" he said quickly walking towards you.
He pulled you into his chest and sat down.

"Shhhhh. Why'd u do this princess?" He said sniffling."I already lost one of my girls, I can't loose you too"

"I'm sorry Niall. I'm just so sad."
You said still crying.

"It's okay. We are going to get help okay? I'll get you help."
He brought you back to your room and laid you down. He snuggled up next to you.

"I love you. I can't loose you y/n"

Was the last thing you heard before you fell in a dreamless world.

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-Lauren💕