One direction depression imagines

You have a flasback (liam/louis)

You were currently on tour with your big brother Louis, and your boyfriend Liam;)

"Louis," you whined, "I'll be fine I promise! You guys go eat. I'm just going to stay here and rest."

"N/y... I don't know... The fans can get pretty crazy. What if one of them breaks in here?" Louis said worryingly.

"Li, tell him to let me stay. It will be fine, i promise I'll call u if anything happens ."
Liam came over and sat next to you on the couch. He wrapped his arm around your shoulders lovingly and kissed your forehead.

Louis rolled his eyes at your PDA.

"Louis just let her stay. He won't be gone for that long anyway."

"Okay fine. You win." Louis said getting up and grabbing his coat.

All the boys headed out the door as Liam gave you one last kiss goodbye.
"We'll be back soon darling." Liam said shutting the door.

You sighed in relief, as you were finally alone. As much as you loved them, being on a bus with 4 boys 24/7 can get exhausting.
You got up, grabbing the remote and a water bottle, and sat back down on the huge leather couch.

You were flipping through the channels trying to find anything worth watching when all of a sudden u stopped on a channel with a little girl holding her dads hand.

"I'm scared daddy." The little girl said to her dad.

"There's no reason to be afraid Emily. I love you and we will make it through, I'll never leave. You're my whole world, my princess."

You immediately turned off the tv, staring at the blank screen.
You started hearing the same cries from your mother as you did when you were 8.
Your father had left a couple years after your 10th birthday, after taking all the money and everything you own, of course leaving your mother crying herself to sleep every night.

Your brother Louis had stepped up to become the man of the house after he left. Grabbing every opportunity to make money he could get, anything to help your mother.

You could feel the tears slowly sliding down your face as you remembered the days before your dad left.
How you would hide, scared in your room that we would find you.

You remember how the floor boards creaked when he'd be walking up the stairs, and the way he'd hit your mother when he was drunk.
Louis tried to protect you as best as he could, but it was no use...
Once or twice you'd accidentally crossed paths with him while he was drunk... Those nights have forever scared you.

A loud scream escaped your lips, as you fell to the floor gripping your head in your hands.

"DADDY, WHY WEREN'T WE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!?! You sobbed.

You were rocking yourself back and forth, in the corner of the bus trying to escape the memories.

Your eyes were tightly sowed shut as you could see his drunken face, smirking at you holding a knife. Suddenly you were transported back into that house. The house that stole your childhood from you. You could still smell the alcohol, even after all these years.

"STOP!" You screamed out, sobbing so loud you could barely get the words out. "I CANT-"

You immediately felt yourself being pulled into someones arms.
"NO NO NO! STOP PLEASE, IM SORRY!" You sobbed shaking your head, refusing to open your eyes.

"Y/n! It's Louis!"

"NO! PLEASE DAD! IM SORRY."
You felt myself being lifted up and placed in another pair of arms.

"Shh baby it's me. It's Liam. Listen to my voice okay? It's not real babe, he's not there. It's only me, it's only Liam. I love you so much, I need you to back to me ok? Come back to me y/n"

You laid your head against his chest and cried for all you had left.
"It felt so real Li. I was back there, I was still in that house! I can never escape Liam!" Your voice slightly cracked at the end.

"He's coming for us Liam! He knows we're here! We have to go, before he gets here!" You finally brought you head up opening your eyes to see all the boys surrounding you and Liam on the floor, as your breathing started to pick up again.

"Hey hey hey, Nobody's coming for us sis. Look at me. You never have to go through that again, not while I'm here. I'll protect you, we'll all keep you safe." Louis said rubbing your back.

Liam picked you up and carried you to the bed, as you heard the other boys leave, giving you a minute to breathe.
He laid down next to you as you snuggled into his chest.

"Baby what happened?" Liam asked once your breathing had gone back to normal again.

You took a deep breathe, " I was watching Tv, and I flipped the channel to this little girl and her dad," You looked down avoiding his gaze, "he was telling her how much he loved her, and how everything was going to be okay.
And then I started thinking... How much I wish I had a dad like that. One that was there for me, one that cared about me,"
Your voice cracked as you tried to get the words out.
"It was like I was transported there again, back in that house. I haven't thought about it for so long... And then everything, all these thoughts and memories, just hit me.
I'm so sorry Liam. I tried to stay strong but I-"
You stopped as more tears rolled down your cheek.

"Y/n, non of this was your fault. You don't ever have to be sorry. I love you so much darling.  I wish I could take this pain away, But I can't.
If this is something we have to live with, I'll be there every step of the way.  I love you too much too loose you y/n. You don't ever have to worry about him again, I'll always protect you." He whispered as he kissed you gently.

"Thank You Li. I love you too"

"Get some sleep now baby, I know you need it. I'll be here to scare all the bad thought away."
You nodded as you fell into a dreamless world. 

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