One direction depression imagines

Bms Louis finds you selfharming

( Request )

*your point of view*

It was your first day of Sophomore year, and also your brother Louis' last day until he leaves for tour.
Today was a living hell. You walked down the side walk with a limp in your step, you tried to think of anything but the names they called you. It was a new school year, you thought things would be different from last year.... But you were wrong.
You made it to your front porch wincing as you climbed the stairs.

"Hello" you called opening the door. Of course nobody was here, not even Louis would want to spend his last day with you.
You climbed the stairs stoping to give your leg a rest, you were sure your ankle was sprained.

As you made it to your room you dropped your book bag and shut your door.
You walked to your bathroom opening the cabinets,  looking for the thing you desired most... Your blade.

Your finger landed on the cold metal as you pulled it out and lifted up your sleeve.
You cried and whispered "This is for not being good enough" swiping the blade across your wrist.

"worthless"
Swipe

"ugly"
Swipe
After about 15 minutes your whole arm was covered in cuts,
but your right arm was clean. You looked in the mirror at yourself and silent tears started to roll down your face.
You started scarring up your right arm when Louis walked in the door.

"Y/n I want to spend some time with you!!! It's my last-"
He stopped as he saw you in the bathroom standing there staring at him with the blade still pressed to your wrist.
"Y/n put it down" he said calmly walking toward you slowly, shaking your head you backed up.
"Y/n please baby I need you to put it down."
You shook your head sobbing backing up more.
"I deserve this Louis, I'm WORTHLESS"
You screamed making another cut on your wrist.
"No! Y/n stop!" He said forcefully trying to get the blade out of your hand.

"No Louis!" You cried as the blade finally came free and he threw it behind him.
You tried to run and retrieve it but he quickly stopped you as his strong arms were around your waist.
"Come on babe, you don't need it. I'm here now n/y I love you."
He whispered in your ear as he was dragging you into the bedroom, you could barely hear him over your cries.

He sat down on the bed pulling you into his lap.
"It's ok honey. Tell my why you did this"
"The kids at school they-they call me things Lou horrible things and I can't get it out of my head."
You whispered

"Baby, your perfect and I love you so much. When I'm on tour and I'm missing home I remember that you are here waiting for me, and I need to make it through. I can't lose you okay? You are going to come on tour with me, and I'm going to be there ever step of the way. I love you so much sis."

You nodded and smiled shyly,
"I love you too Louis"