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Bms eating disorder (harry)

(Bulimia)

You and your older brother Harry were spending the day together. You hadn't seen him in awhile because of touring, and suggested that you guys have some "brother sister time".
What Harry didn't know was that while touring you developed depression and an eating disorder, you didn't plan to tell him, or anyone for that matter.

You two were currently sitting in the living room watching "Love Actually" one of his favorite films.

"Y/n I'm going to go order pizza"
He smiled and walked to the kitchen, you gulped how were you supposed to get out of this one?

After about 20 minutes the pizza arrived, as you sat in front of the TV trying to think of anything but the pizza sitting right in front of you.

"Aren't you going to eat y/n? I got your favorite, black olives with onion."
You smiled at the kind gesture but immediately thought of how you were supposed to throw up if Harry was around you constantly.

"Of course! I was just so concentrated on the movie I forgot it was even here. Hahah" you did this weird fake laugh that made Harry look at you funny.
"Are you okay?" He asked

"Yep I'm good..."

"Well I can't eat this whole thing by myself"
You picked up a piece and took a small bite, Harry turned his attention back to the TV, thinking nothing of the small ordeal.
You immediately felt the fat piling up on you.

"I'm going to run to the bathroom" you said finishing your pizza.
"Ok"

You quickly went up stairs straight to the bathroom.
You closed the door and locked it, and fell to your knees in front of the toilet.
You shoved to fingers down your throat gaging, trying to hurry up in case Harry happened to come upstairs.

You quickly threw up and repeated this 6 more times until you were satisfied.
You flushed the toilet and washed your hands, smoothing out your clothes to make it look like nothing happened.
You opened the door and to your surprise Harry was leaning against the wall looking at you with a sad expression on his face.
"What are you doing?" you asked shifting your eyes to the floor.

"I think the question is, what are you doing?" He said standing up straight.

"I was using the loo"

"Then why were you puking? We've had that kind of pizza before and it's never made you sick. Did you make yourself throw up y/n?"

"No Harry that's reticules." You said heading to walk down stairs.
He grabbed your arm and spun you around.

"Y/n tell me the truth. I know you're lying." You saw tears well up in his eyes as he stared back at you.
You didn't say anything, only stared at the ground in shame.

"You have been making yourself throw up...haven't you?"
You nodded slowly waiting for his reaction.
He pulled you into a hug, you stayed silent not sure what to think of everything that just happened.
He wasn't supposed to find out! Not like this, never!
You pushed him away turning around slowly walking away, putting your head in your hands.
"Y/n?" harry asked as you pushed him away.

"No! You weren't supposed to FIND OUT! YOU NEVER WERE SUPPOSED TO FIND OUT! You screamed at him as tears streamed down your face.

"Y/n calm down."

"Don't you dare fucking tell me to calm down! Don't you dare!"

"Y/n I'm not going to leave you ok? Never. I love you and I'm going to help you get better."

"I'm scared Harry."

"I know babe, I know. I love you sis. I love you so much."
He said pulling you into another hug.

"I love you too haz" you whispered into the crook of his neck.
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