One direction depression imagines

Selfharm (Harry/Niall)

*Nialls your boyfriend;)

"Y/n, is it alright if the boys come over?!" You heard Niall yell from down stairs.

"Yeah Ni, I'll be down in a minute." You replied as you pushed the blade deeper into your wrist.
You had just had an awful day, filled with Twitter hate & nasty people at work.
This was the only way you could release the build up.

"Princess, where are you?" You heard Niall coming closer to the bathroom door.
"I'll be out in a minute babe. I'm just finishing up here." You lied, flushing the toilet to make it seem more realistic. You rapped your arm in gauze and threw on a sweater, making sure to hide your blade before you went out.

As you walked down the stairs you could hear the rest of the boys arriving.

"Hey guys!" You smiled as they wrapped their arms around you.

"Hi y/n" they said in unison.
They let go and went to the living room to watch the game.
Harry is the only one who stayed behind.
"Can I talk to you for a minute please y/n"

"Um sure, what's up?"

"I think we should go upstairs" he said, beginning to walk that way.
You followed closely behind wondering what all this could be about.

As you stepped into the spare bedroom he quickly slammed the door behind.

"Harry what's going o-"

"Why did you do it?!" He asked with tears in his eyes.

"I don't know what you're talking about" you said looking away.

"I saw y/n. I saw the blood stained gauze that's under your sweater."

"H-how?" You asked with tears threatening to spill over.

"When you hugged us," He answered sitting on the bed. "Does Niall know?"

"No."

"Are you going to tell him."

"No." You whispered as your voice cracked.

"Y/n you have to. You know you can't hide this forever! He needs to know, he deserves to know."
You nodded, knowing Harry was right.

"I'll go tell him to come up, and the rest of the boys and I will leave so you can talk it out."
You looked down ashamed that you've now ruined their night.
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"Niall, y/n wants to talk to you upstairs."
You heard Niall's loud footsteps as the boys left.

"Y/n, where are you?" You heard him ask from the hallway.

"In here." You chocked out because you knew what was coming.

"Hey hey hey  what's wrong?" He asked taking you in his arms.
You scooted away.
"I need to tell you something" you said standing up right in front of him.

"What is it? You can tell me anything y/n don't be scared."

You looked away and pulled up your sleeve, revealing the the blood stained bandages that were hidden beneath.

"Y/n..." he whispered.

You flinched as his ice cold hands touched your warm skin, beginning to take off the gauze.

"I'm sorry" you whispered, squeezing your eyes shut hoping to disappear. The bandages feel to the ground as the room fell silent.

You looked up to see him staring at your self inflicted wounds, with tears running down his face.

"How long as this been happening?" He asked taking your wrist and running his thumb over the newly made marks.

"This was the first time I've done it since I was 15." You confessed.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," He said starting to cry. He pulled you into his arms and cried. He couldn't understand why such a beautiful girl would do such an ugly thing.
"I love you so much baby. I love you so much." He kept repeating.

"It's not your fault Niall I promise. I just had a really hard day." You looked away ashamed, knowing it was shellfish of you to hurt him like that.

"Y/n," he pulled away looking straight into your eyes.
"Promise me something," you nodded.
"if you ever feel like hurting yourself again," he kissed your forehead. "Remember that I love you. And if you ever think you're worthless," he kissed your cheek "Remember that, I love you,"
"And if you ever think your not good enough," he kissed your lips. "Remember that I love you."

"I loved you Niall." You whispered as he picked you up to go clean your cuts.

The rest night was full of movies, cuddles, and
"I love you's"

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~Lauren<3