One direction depression imagines

Panic attack (Niall)

**EXTREME CUTENESS**
The boys had just released a new album so of course it was customary to celebrate!

Niall had insisted on having a huge party at the local pub with all of your friends and
of course all the boys' friends.
You were slightly concerned due to your anxiety but Niall assured you that he would be there through everything and there was nothing to worry about.

9:00 p.m

Niall held your hand in the car, and to say you were nervous would be an understatement. The last time you went to a party this size you ended up leaving early and everyone made fun of you, except this time you couldn't leave.
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"I need Niall" you said shakily to one of Harry's friends, you guys had met a couple months before.

"What y/n? I'm sorry I can't hear you it's too loud!"
There were people everywhere pushing into you and the music was too loud for him to hear a word.
You could feel anxiety bubbling up in you as you tried to push it away.
"Please get Niall" you tried to say again but this time it seemed to come out as more of a whisper.

"I'm sorry y/n I can't hear you but you should come and dance with us!"
He pulled you closer to the dance floor as you tried to get out of his grip.

"N-no that's okay" you said as he loosened his grip and you fell to the floor.

"Suit yourself." He yelled mixing back in with all the people.
You knew he'd be too drunk to remember any of this tomorrow.

At this point everything was just a haze, you quickly tried to get up but fell down again. Next time using the wall, you managed to pick yourself up as your breathing quickened.
You looked around & saw a red exist sign and quickly ran that direction but bumped into someone,
"I'm s-s-orry" you managed to get out.

You opened the door before it slammed behind you, and let the chilly night air surround you as you sobbed.
You leaned your face against the brick building and dug your nails into it as if it could break away, you needed to hold onto something.
Your loud growing sobs filled the night air as you suddenly realized you were all alone.
You turned yourself around and slid down the wall gripping your hair, your breathing now more ragged than before.

"I need h-him," you sobbed to no one but yourself, "please Niall I need you."
You now moved your hand so your nails were digging into your arm, anything to stop the panic.

Niall saw you run out but trying to squeeze through dancing bodies was easier said then done. When we did finally make it out he was horrified to see you no where in sight but could only hear your terrible cries. He ran around the building and saw you on the ground.

"Princess..." he ran over to your shaking figure.
"Baby no," he tried to pry your digging nails from your arm but it only made you cry louder.
"You can't hurt yourself, please baby. Just listen to me, " he pulled your shaking figure into his chest and wrapped his strong arms around you while moving back and forth.
"Shhhhhh princess, listen to my voice, everything is okay. You're okay, I'm here now, I love you so much baby. Just relax and listen to my voice beautiful, everything is okay. Shhhh baby relax"

Your breathing had calmed down and all you could do was cry and wrap your arms around him.

"I'm sorry!" You cried "I'm sorry I tried to find you!"

"Shh no saying sorry baby, everything is okay."
He pulled away and pushed your hair out of your face and kissed your lips, you had stopped crying and the only thing that remained was the slight shaking of your hands.

"Let's go home and get you cleaned up princess."
He helped you stand and held your hand as you walked to the car.
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You walked upstairs slowly to the bathroom, as soon as you got there Niall picked you up and set you on the sink as he stood between your legs.

"Let me see" he said referring to your arm.
You laid your arm down and was surprised to see that marks and streaks of blood scattered your forearm.

He immediately started cleaning it up and washing it off.

"This might hurt a little" he poured a clear liquid all over your arm.
You hissed and immediately pulled back your arm.

"It's okay, trust me" he said while pulling your arm back down.
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Once you had been all cleaned up, and you had apologized about 12 more times, he brought you to bed.

"Good night princess. Just relax and don't think about anything else but us, here and now"

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