Reflections of my Heart (Part I )

About Purity

February 23,2015

When I was seventeen years old, while standing on a waiting shed near my school for a ride, I uttered a simple but heartfelt prayer, to be a virgin until marriage. I prayed that the only man who can touch my body intimately is no other than my husband. I never thought I will wait for years, that up until now I'm still waiting for him.

This year, I am in my forties and still unadulterated. Most people might say I'm ultra conservative or very Victorian but that's not really the case, the Lord just answered my prayer and He kept His promise.

Some people doesn't believe me when I tell them I haven't been with a man in an intimate way. Just like the doctor (in her mid-twenties) at the hospital one time when she examined my ovaries and she asked me several times if I am really a virgin and I said yes. It's funny really when she looked at me in an odd way as if being a virgin now a days is now the exception rather than the rule.

Is purity a taboo nowadays? Is this how the world perceived it today? If that's the case, then what were the moral values that society is teaching these generation? God forbid that we will forget the teachings of the Church about morality in order for modern civilization to flourish.

It's disturbing to know that if you talk about purity and God's teaching about its importance, it was frowned at or been snickered to while applauding those who throw caution to the wind and flaunt how liberated they were because that's already the "in" thing nowadays. That's why, no wonder, sexual diseases were escalating because of promiscuous behavior. I'm not condemning anyone in this reflection of mine because I, too, experienced how hard is it to say no to sexual temptation but that doesn't mean, it can't be done.

It's a matter of choice really. If you are single, it's up to you how far you can go with your boyfriend or girlfriend when you face the physical facet of your relationship and if you're already married, I guess, it's a matter of being faithful to your better half.

This is just how I look at things in terms of the body as the temple of the Holy Spirit. Many of you might be wondering how did I do it, staying untouched after all these years, with five exes to boot, well, let me tell you, it's all God's grace and the ingraining of my parents in my mind through my formative years to save myself for just one man and that will be my husband.

Right now, I'm still waiting and I haven't regretted that I waited this long and will wait some more in order for me to reap the reward of not having a past to compare it to nor be afraid if my past will haunt me again in my future. By preserving myself for that one special man who will not only own my heart but my undefiled body as well is my dream since I was a teen. And I thank God that He protected me after all this years from deviating from my dream.

Everything is not lost for those, one way or the other, found themselves deviated from the path of purity because we have a God of second chances or third, so on and so forth. Our loving Father always embraces our weaknesses if we repented of our promiscuity and walk again the path of righteousness. He loved us so much to allow us to continue defiling the body that the Holy Spirit is dwelling on. No two spirit can dwell inside one body. It's either you chose to be pure or the other way around. But I tell you, when you choose the former, your crown of joy surpasses the temporary lust that you let your body succumbed to.

Sex is a gift from God. It is the ultimate expression of love between a man and his wife and even in this modern society, that rule still stand. No to premarital nor marital affairs of the flesh and when you obey the teaching of the Lord, the marriage that you were waiting for (if you're still single) will be the best there is and more satisfying and if you're married already, the marriage that you are in now will be filled with blessings unsurpassed because of your fidelity.

How do I know it? Why don't you asked those happy couples who waited on the Lord and they will guarantee it. I did asked and their answers were rewarding enough and I, too, dreamt of what they've got.

Someday, my time will come and when me and my husband's marriage bed is saturated with purity, I know, the grace and blessings of the Lord will be there.

Thank you Lord for your Spirit that dwells in me.