Chloe's POV
7:57 am
I sighed after looking at the time, I can't sleep and I need to clear my head. Ever since two days ago I've been feeling like complete shit, I should've never said anything because then I'd probably be fast asleep in becas arms right now. I got up and snuck out of Aubrey's dorm, grabbing my jacket. I started walking to my little meadow and put my hands in my pocket and felt my beanie. I took it out and pulled it over my head, then I zipped up my jacket. I put my hands back in my pocket and as I got there I saw beca. I stared at her, she was asleep but she was more pale than usual and she was shivering. I saw a lot of empty beer bottles beside beca and I sighed. I wanted to walk away but I just couldn't leave her like this. I groaned and took my jacket off and rapped it around beca. I sat down next to her and held her in my lap and rubbed her arms "beca.." She moved a bit and then slowly opened her eyes "Chloe? Chloe!" She shivered still and hugged me while she gridded her teeth. I hugged back a bit and she looked up at me with tears in her eyes "Chloe I am so, so sorry" she looked down and wiped her tears. "No beca, I should be the sorry one I shouldn't have told you... Or tried to tell you" I shouldn't be the sorry one she should be, but I just want to fix everything. "No Chloe... Chlo I'm the bitch so don't even try apologizing when you didn't do anything" she cupped my cheek with one hand, and stroked the side of it with her thumb. Her hands were like ice, she shouldn't have slept out here. I looked at her and felt my eyes begin to water "don't cry" beca was now tearing up too "I don't like it that I'm the reason you're crying Chlo" I looked away from her again and slid her hand off of my cheek. "I'm sorry but beca I can't really be around you anymore... Not until I get over you. I know you're my best friend but I just can't see you anymore without feeling like shit, I have to go I have class anyways" I turned around and started walking away. "Chloe! Stop! It's Saturday we don't have class today" beca got up and rapped my jacket around her and followed me. "Chloe please stop" she grabbed my hand but I yanked it away and turned around to face her. "Can you stop! What don't you get that you hurt me beca! I can barely look at you without feeling like complete shit! I just need fucking space so please give me it and stop following me around like a sad lost puppy! It's pathetic!" I yelled at her and she stopped. I looked down and let a few tears drop "I, I'm sorry red I'll just" she sighs "just know that I care about you okay, and I'm not giving up. I'm gonna fix this Chlo I promise" she said softly and I shook my head "you can't fix this beca, you just can't" I shrugged and left.
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When I walked back into Aubrey's dorm she was pacing around the room "Bree?" I closed the door and she turned to face me. "Chloe I've been worried sick" I smiled a bit and walked over to her "I'm fine don't worry" I reassured her and walked into my room. Aubrey's dorm was pretty big since she was a senior, she had a kitchen, a bathroom with a shower, and two separate bedrooms. I laid down and thought about if I was going to go to the coffee shop to preform tonight or if was gonna leave Beca hanging. I probably sound really immature for even being mad at her but she hurt me, and although it might appear to be like high school drama to other people... It's not to me, I liked her a lot.... I love her. Love is unfair though, and so is life. Love is such a powerful thing, it makes you feel things you can't explain, heck it even makes you do things for no reason, however it can also make you feel like shit. It can make you feel worthless, lonely, stupid, desperate, vulnerable, depressed... It can make you feel so small and alone. Life is very similar, one day you can have everything, be happy and then the next thing you know... Well you will be betrayed, alone, used and everything will just be flipped upside down. Everything is so dark, and believe me it's easy to get lost in a world so big, it's easy to be at the top and fall to the bottom. It's easy to lose all the hope that you've had by just a single comment, emotion, thought, gesture and that's what scares me. Life is scary, you just have to learn how to manage and get by.. Because there's always tomorrow. I sighed and rolled over so my face was buried in my pillow. What am I gonna do about beca? I can't avoid her forever, I wish I can but I wouldn't let myself. I looked at the time,it was 6:27 pm. I have 2 hours and a half to decide, that's plenty of time, but I don't think I'm gonna go.
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9:46 pm
I'm late and beca is probably almost down to her last song, but here I am on my way to the coffee shop. I don't know why I decided to go for the last song but I am. I looked though the window and didn't see beca on the stage. I walked in and walked up to the counter "Chloe?" I turned around and saw Dylan in a buttoned up shirt with a tie loosely around his neck and dark blue skinny jeans on. I'm not gonna lie I think he is very attractive, but that doesn't mean I like him. "Oh hey do you know where beca is?" I smiled a bit "oh um she finished up about half an hour ago. She said you were sick so he was cutting the show short" he half smiled and looked down "uh Chlo, do you like wanna hang out later like... Sorry I'm bad at this" he ran his fingers through his hair. I think he's trying to ask me out.. "Um are you asking me out?" I asked confused and he smiled and nodded. "Yea, yea I am. I know there are a lot of rumours of me sleeping around and stuff but I'm not like that, I really like you and um yea" I don't know if he actually likes me or if he's trying to use me, but I guess I should at least try to move on from beca, and Dylan is the perfect way to get over her. "Yea, of course. I was just going to head to my dorm, do you wanna come? We can watch movies and stuff" he smiled and put his hands in his pockets. "Yea that sounds great" I smiled and texted Aubrey to go to Stacie's dorm. Dylan and I walked to Aubrey's dorm and I unlocked the door with the key Aubrey gave me. "Why did you and beca get a new dorm?" I walked in and he followed me. "Um well actually I don't live with her anymore so I moved into Aubrey's dorm, it's a long story" he nodded and didn't ask about it anymore, which I'm glad he didn't because I hate talking about it. We walked into my room and I sat on the bed and he sat beside me. I turned on the tv and put a random movie in. "So miss Beale tell me about yourself, I mean we already know each other but I'd like to get to know you more" he laid down and put his hands behind his head. I smiled and laid down beside him "you already know everything about me" I looked at him and he looked back "I don't know what your favourite colour is, or your favourite food, you know the small stuff" I rested my head on his chest and he played with my hair. I wish he was beca, ugh I need to stop thinking about her. "My favourite colour is green, I love Mac and cheese, my middle name is rose which I hate, um I love being hugged from behind, and I'm scared of losing people I love" I took in a deep breath and let it out "your turn" I looked up at Dylan, he was smiling and looking up at the ceiling. "My favourite colour is blue, like your eyes. My favourite food is ice cream, my mom died when I was five and I don't like when people use other people" he sighed. "So you like my eyes huh?" He laughed and nodded "yea I like everything about you" I smiled then heard a knock on the door. "I'll be right back" I got up and walked out of my room, I answered the door. Beca was standing there holding flowers with a sad smile on her face "beca how did you... What are you doing here?" I crossed my arms. "I forced it out of Stacie, she told me you were at Aubrey's dorm and then she told me where it was. Look I'm sorry, and I don't know how may times I'm gonna say it but all I know is that actions speak louder than words so um here" she held out the flowers and I slowly took them "and uh come with me, I wanna show you some-" dylan came to the door and interrupted beca "Chloe whe- oh hey... Beca right?" Becas smile faded and she nodded "yea.. Um sorry I didn't mean to interrupt you guys" she looked down "see you around Chlo" I looked at Dylan. She walked away and I didn't know if I should go after her or not. It's beca or Dylan. Beca... Or Dylan.
A/N
I've been so busy so sorry if this update is crap and if you are wondering who plays Dylan its zac efron... Anyways thanks for ready!
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