Support Group ( Jai Courtney )

Day 14 part 2

We settled down at the dinning table, Chris at my right and Anna in front of me, looking ever so unmoved. For a moment I felt lost. Lost in everything going on at the moment, what were they going to announce me ? would I be relieved to know the truth? And strangely enough, Jai was in my mind too. What were we ? He calls me ' baby' this had to mean something, like the pain his blue eyes held this morning. I caused this pain.. I'm such a pa-

" Lili. "

I glanced up at Chris. I was glad he was the one doing the talking because Anna clearly couldn't see my face anymore and wanted nothing more but to throw me out the door. My anxiousness had my eyes all watery and glossy.

" Your dad was sick and he wasn't supposed to die this soon. "

I didn't really remember my dad but he was my hero because he is the only one I've heard about. Nothing from my mother.

" And at the time he died, we couldn't afford another child. We wouldn't have been able to give you the life you deserved."

" B-but you promised my dad.."

" I know that Lili, we broke our promise and trust me we aren't proud of ourselves-"

He was interrupted by Anna huffing loudly. And gave her a harsh look which she rolled her eyes at. What a childish move.

" Like I said, at the time we wouldn't have been  able to give a great life, it would have been hard for all of us, we were already on the edge. "

" So you just thought that letting me by myself with strangers was better ? "

" We were strangers for you too at the time."

" You could have explained my just how Ben did !"

" You were too young Lili come on ! How can you tell that to a toddler !"

I didn't know how to reply, I didn't even know what to say anymore so I just kept my mouth shut and thought of a way to get away for now.

It was silent for an awkward thirty seconds when I decided to get up.

" Where are you going ? "

" I need space and time."

I didn't get any response so I assumed they were just okay with it.

11.47 p.m.

Jai said he had work this afternoon right ?

I dialed his number surprising myself from knowing his number by heart. As much as I didn't want to feel that way and as much as I wanted to be an independent woman, it felt like he was the only one I needed.

Come on Jai answer.

" Hey you're on Jai's phone, not there, so leave a message and I'll call you back."

I hung and decided to call back.
After falling three times on his voicemail, I left a message, defeated.

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Jai's P.O.V

" Hey Jai...umh it's Lili, I thought since you only had work this afternoon we could maybe grab some lunch downtown... I would repay you for this lunch you invited me too, I mean maybe, if you want to, anyways call me back. Bye lo- uh bye."

Was she gonna say 'love you' ?

Damn it why can't I get this girl out of my mind.

I didn't answer on purpose, because I felt used and that's exactly what I was trying to avoid. First she left me there this morning and now she calls me expecting me to crawl back at her. No. As much as I wanted to, no. I knew I was dependent to this girl, I was addicted even. But I couldn't just let myself fall for Lili this easily knowing that she wouldn't.
I had to forget a bit about her for now.

I put my phone on airplane mode and went to my fridge. I got the leftovers, heated them up and plopped down on my couch. TV on, I felt like those thirty guys who have no life and no friends, and spend their whole day on the couch.
I wasn't that guy. But without her that how I felt.

Maybe work was going to get my mind off.

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