Support Group ( Jai Courtney )

Day 25

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I woke up in pure bliss feeling like I was on cloud 9. I felt the warmth of a body next to mine, feeling it's flesh, a naked body. And I remembered it all. Last night.

I lost my virginity to the man I love, my first love, the man who was five years older than me, the man who has been there for me. The man who had this Australian accent I was crazy about.

I was in deep thoughts my eyes still closed, trying to picture every thoughts.
Like having parents who wouldn't approve of my boyfriend. And me running away with him, but eventually make up with my mother around some hot tea in the cold winter just before Christmas. The images in my head were joyful and beautiful, but this was all a dream, making up a new and perfect life I would never have. It hurt, but a shift from Jai's body made me think back on how I met him. And most importantly why.
His arm draped over my body and pulled my back towards his chest.
I felt him nuzzle his face into my neck.

" Mmm Hello baby "

Baby.

This word felt different and took all its sense since yesterday.

' I want you to be mine. '

I was his and he was mine. We were a couple, and I hoped we could start to act like one.

" Hi "

It was my turn to drape my arm over his, lancing my fingers through his.
But I soon enough felt a cold air hit my bare hips. And insecurity grew inside me, I was naked, even if I could now say it's only my boyfriend besides me.
I was extremely uncomfortable, so I gently pulled is arm back into his chest and rolled myself in the covers now facing him. But quickly realization came rushing in my brain that Jai was naked too and now without any covers.
I glanced down on him and he did the same on himself. I regretted doing so because of how embarrassed I felt seeing his morning boner.
I heard him chuckle and he embraced me gluing our bodies together.

" Uhh Jai... Could you take care of your..of yourself while I put some clothes on ? "

" Why ? I think I'm pretty comfortable that way."

Damn you

" Well I have to admit that being rolled in covers naked is pretty comfortable but we can't stay like that all day can we ? "

" But I think we can."

He held me even tighter.

" You're such a stubborn man Mr.Courtney."

" Yeah I'm the old one here, so I'm wiser am I say that we stay like that. "

I'm the old one here.

It annoys me how old he is compared to me I seem like a little naive girl.
I rolled my eyes and wiggled out of his grip and the covers, not caring anymore about my nudity.
I grabbed a big shirt swiftly throwing it on to go on the quest of the rest of my belongings.

" Come baaaack." He whined like a child.

I didn't reply not stopped what I was doing for him.

" Baabyyyy. "

I glared a him as he kept on whining.

" I thought you were the old one here." I spit.

His smile instantly fell.

" Are you mad ? "

I didn't reply.

" Baby ? "

" Lili come on."

" Is it something I did ? What did I do ? "

After putting on my freshly found panties I turn to face Jai.

" No you did nothing. "

No emotions were heard in my voice because I was upset with Jai, why ? Hormones maybe, I'm such a kid after all.

I went to the bathroom to brush my hair and my teeth. I French braided my hair and splashed my face with cold water.
After I was done getting ready, I returned in the bed room, Jai still in bed but with boxers on. I grabbed my phone next to him and went to leave but his voice once again stopped me.

" Lili what the hell you are leaving ? "

" Yeah. I have stuff to do. "

" You know damn well you have nothing to do, you never have anything to do except when you're with me ! "

" Well fuck you mister I'm the center of the freaking world ! "

I opened the door and it slammed loudly when it closed.

I was beyond mad at him, I shouldn't though, because all this was stupid and things shouldn't be like that between us. On my way I was imagining if Jai would actually run to get me back, shout my name, or how he loves me in the streets like he couldn't care less of what people were thinking. But yet again this was all a dream of the perfect life I'll never have.

I was so deep in thoughts that the next thing I heard was a car horn, rather really close to me. Too close.