Support Group ( Jai Courtney )

Day 18

It's been four days since I saw or even talked to him. And I didn't think missing someone like this was possible nor that I would be the one feeling it.
I called him on the first two days but gave up when the only thing I was reaching was his voicemail.
I went on my life, get up, work, eat out, get home, eat, sleep, and so on. Sleep is a big word because I was beating myself up to try to understand what I did wrong.
It was still pretty awkward with my foster parents but I just had to bear with it.

And here I was on a Saturday working but my mind was so out of it that I couldn't do anything right.
I was also beating myself up because I didn't want to feel so hopeless without a guy that probably didn't give a damn about me, and who just wanted to get in my pants but when he realized I wasn't that easy and naive he let go.
Maybe he was that guy, I hoped hard that I was wrong. I wanted to be wrong.
Maybe he broke his phone.

I already had been over all possible things that could have been going on with Jai. He could be dead for all I know. Stop it Lili.
I've been imagining the worst scenarios, him forgetting about me and never wanting to see me again being one of them. It scared me how affected and how crazy I would sound if the thoughts I had those past few days were said out loud.
But I couldn't control it.

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Today went slower than ever. Anna said I couldn't go home until 6. This was such a long time and nothing to do with it. Sitting in a park for three hours straight, music in the ears, I took my phone out to watch the time and decided it was time to take the bull by the horns. I sat straight up, my music blasting giving me the confidence I truly needed. I got the bus just on time, maybe my luck wasn't all gone.

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Here I was, facing the tall grey build on that felt all so familiar by now. I pushed open the double door and didn't spare a glance on the blonde receptionist, heading toward the elevator. I pushed the ' 7 ' button and patiently waited.

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Jai's P.O.V

A ding was heard and made all of our faces turn toward the elevator.
And here she was, in her infamous ripped jeans. She had a confident look on her beautiful face. Like she owned the place. Well she surely owned something in here.

" Am I too late ? "

My mouth hang a bit open, it was so good to hear her voice again. I missed her, I was so infatuated with her, that I wonder how I ignored her for the past few days. Before I could form any words, Sarah beat me to it.

"  Of course not Lili ! Get a chair and come next to me I wondered where you had been all this time ! Jai wouldn't tell us a thing ! "

Her eyes connected with mine for a few seconds, her confidence dropping but she quickly regained herself  and went to take a chair and sit next to Sarah.

The hour went on and Lili didn't utter a single word.

" Alright guys thank you, now times for Sarah's cookies ! "

We all got up and went toward the tables. Except for Lili, still in her chair, looking down at her hands.

" Lili, let's go upstairs."

She didn't react except for getting up and heading toward the stairs. I saw her set up two chairs and followed her. I sat down facing her.

" Lili I-"

" Why were you ignoring me ? "

She was mad. And I understood that.

" I'm sorry, but when you left this morning I felt used Lili, I felt like I was only a distraction in your messed up life an-"

I stopped myself when I saw her watery eyes. What did I say...

" No-no no I'm sorry I didn't mean that ! "

" But you said it Jai and you're right, I'm messed up."

" No absolutely not you're not messed up Lili.

I am, I shouldn't have ignored you but tell me you're not using me."

" I thought you were the one using me, and that you just grew tired of me."

" I would never get tired of you."

I took her cheeks in my palms, getting our faces closer.

" Lili you have to understand that I care for you, you are not alone okay? I'm with you. "

" You are ? "

" Yeah I shouldn't have ignored you but that was my way to protect myself from getting hurt."

" What is your secret Jai ? "

She was whispering almost afraid to ask.

" Now is not the time baby. I missed you.
Your voice, your eyes, the way you roll them."

And just at that she rolled them unconsciously making me smile goofily.

" and your lips, God I missed them. "

I gazed at her lips, just like she did at mine and couldn't help but to lean into her and connecting our lips. I missed this feeling.

I missed my Lili.

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Ohhhhhhjhhhh I updated so fast this time ! Since I've been out of Internet for a week y'all deserve this chapter ! Love.