Trying to keep the player

Ch. 28. Player meet the queen of England

Chapter 28

All of it was a misunderstanding. Even misunderstandings had their faults. I clenched the blanket in my hands and pulled it close. My knees were pressed against my chest. I looked down in concern. The choice was hitting down into my heart. I could hear it threw my ears. Who is more important? If you asked me that question and you’d wanted a quick answer.

A part of me would say Seth. No doubt I’d say Seth as a quick answer. Then... A part of me wanted Demon. Why couldn’t I just have both of them? Seth as my best friend and Demon well, let’s see what happens... I drop my head toward my knees. If I wanted to get back Seth then I’d have to find another way. If he really knew me, he would know that it was nothing at the start with Demon. He’s have to believe me. I picked up the phone and start calling Seth. In my surprise he picked up.

“Seth...!” I said in excitement “You finally picked up! Listen, and I really want you to listen to me!” My voice turned from happy to cold and serious. Over the phone I could hardly hear anything..

“Yea, when are you coming back?” he asks me.

“Tomorrow or today night... I’m not sure. I want to get down on what I want to say. How could you believe Damon like that? You know me, and I’m not like that. I’d explain more about how it happen like that but I can’t. It wasn’t like that at the start. I was going to tell you that day but then you just kissed me and... I’m sorry for not seeing it but you’ve been a jerk by believing Damon. Not to mention call me all those names for no flipping reason!” It felt nice to say what I wanted to say “It never started like that with me and Damon. I did something awful to him and he wanted to get pay back so he called you and opened his big mouth and told lies. Thanks to me, he’s got a scar to proof for telling you lies and make you hate me.” There was silence over the phone. Then I could only hear on sigh over the phone. I got up from the bed and then walked around the room. That’s what I did when I was worried and was having a conversation with someone on the phone. I stopped over at the window to look at the amazing view. I felt relived to say the truth to him. Or at least what I could say since I didn’t want to get fired. A smile was plastered on my face.

“That’s great,” Seth answered but not in a good mood voice. His voice sound dead cold and emotionless.

“Huh...?” I was confused “Listen, he was not my boyfriend. I don’t know what else he told you...”

“Was...? Yea, whatever... Nice speech by the way sounded convincing. When you come back, come over to my house and...” Seth dragged on. I felt my body go numb. I stopped breathing and my throat felt blocked.

“Seth... I’m not joking. Don’t do this... I really care about you. You’re the only thing in my life that stuck to me. You were always there and I don’t want you gone now. I need you,” My voice start to go small and filled with feelings. My hand was shaking form holding the phone. Suddenly I couldn’t breathe at all anymore. I felt as if I could chock any minute. How could he not believe me?

“Pick up your stuff from my house. There’s lots of stuff and Sam doesn’t want anything to do with you anymore. It’s either she burns your stuff or you come and pick them up,” Seth said coldly. I bit my lip and tears were ready to flow out of my eyes again. How could he? I let one tear fall down and make a trail on my cheek. I wonder if he knew I was crying.

“I hate you,” Those were the last words that came out because I couldn’t say anything. Nothing would come out. It wasn’t true but I felt like the need to say it. This time I hanged up on Seth. It hurt... I wanted him to treat me like the way he did before. He would hug me and wouldn’t ask anything. Seth would try to cheer me up, play games with me. Seth was always on my side and be there. Having him not here was like I lost part of myself. I didn’t have to hold my feelings deep inside and then let them out when I was alone.