I sat with my laptop open on the login screen to Twitter staring at me thinking about logging in. I threw my laptop back on my bed and grabbed my phone from the desk where I had left it when I grabbed my laptop. I unlocked it and went into my notes searching for Lias password. Once I found it I tried logging in, but it denied the password so I figured Lia must have changed it.
I sighed and continued to log into my Twitter and searched for Lias account. I clicked on her following list and stopped soon after. I tried not to think about what I was doing. I swallowed noticing how hard it was before I jumped at a text coming through in my laptop. It was a number I didn't have saved.
555-3706: You're supposed to be at school Ellorie
I sat for a moment confused before I realized it was Harry. I quickly deleted it followed by closing my laptop and sitting it down beside me. I grabbed my phone seeing it was only 12:30 and I decided I couldn't stay in my house anymore. I quickly slipped my shoes on starting to leave my room. When I walked to the door my mom caught me just as a I started to open it.
"Where are you going?"
"I uh need some fresh air." I said turning around.
"I thought you didn't feel well?" She said tilting her head.
"Yea and staying in that room all day isn't going to help." I said turning back around proceeding to walk out of my house.
"Hey El-" My mom started before I cut her off by closing the door.
I started to walk down the street at first not knowing where I was going. I eventually passed school and decided to go around to the back. When I got there I took a deep breath and crossed the street proceeding through the woods of someone's backyard attempting to get to the meadow that I come to during lunch.
When I finally got there I flopped down in a patch of grass with flowers which were probably actually weeds surrounding me. I laid down and took a deep breath closing my eyes. I started to doze off into a light sleep but the light wind kept me awake.
I sat for what seamed like forever before I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket. I grabbed it and sat up seeing Harry was calling me. I took a moment before answering and when I did I didn't say anything.
"You haven't been returning my texts." He said with a soft voice.
"And?" I said trying not to be that rude.
"Why are you not at school?" He asked in the form of a normal sentence.
"I'm sick."
"Oh?" He said sarcastically.
"Last night was too much." I said practically whispering. We then sat in silence for several more minutes.
"I think I should see you."
"That's probably not the best-"
"So much is happening El." Harry said cutting me off. I sat quietly not knowing what he meant by that.
"It doesn't matter-"
"It does I promise." Harry said cutting me off again. This time I could hear the genuine concern in his voice. I took a deep breath and started to speak again.
"Okay. I- I can meet you at the tennis courts." I said looking around.
I could hear him silently laugh. "If you think I'm going to be at school when you're not there you're wrong."
"Then you're where?" I said not being able to hold back my smile.
"Just come to the tree you pass to get to school." Before I could say anything else he hung up. I started to think about how far that was and if I could walk or not. I realized it was almost just around the corner so I got up and started to make my way to the tree.
I walked down the sidewalk next to the open road noticing there were quiet a few cars coming and going. When I reached the four way intersection I waiting for the crosswalk to tell me to go trying to keep myself invisible as possible feelings like everyone was watching me.
Once I got the tree I noticed Harry wasn't there yet so I sat down with my back to the trunk. I looked up at the sunlight shunting through the leaves and before I knew it I was looking over at Harry standing above me. He started to sit down before I stood up and started to walk away.
"If you think I'm staying here I'm not." I said stepping over sticks.
"We're going where then?" He said following me.
I stopped and a turned around starting to smirk. "It's a secret."
When we reached the meadow I stopped catching my breath before sitting down. I could feel Harry standing behind me right up against me before he sat down next to me and started to fiddle with the flowers next to us.
"I'm trying. To change who I am and what I do." Harry started staring out into the field. I looked over at him, but noticed he wasn't looking at me so I looked away.
"You're- you've made me feel like I never have
Ellorie." I started to feel butterflies before thinking about everything he was saying wasn't adding up.
"How can you say that." I said starting to look over at him.
"I just- it's hard for me to see that I don't know how-"
"You don't know how I feel you don't know what goes on in my head and behind closed doors." He said starting to raise his voice.
"What you're friends has said about me is true I'm not gonna deny what I've done. But since that night I haven't." I tried to think about which night he was talking about before he started to talk again.
"People aren't reacting well to this because of who I am-" Everything else Harry said after this I blocked out thinking about the possible things people were saying. I let out a small sigh combined with a somewhat giggle cutting him off.
"I'm scared to do this." I said looking up at him.
"El I think I love you." He quickly said after.
I could feel all composure slipping out of my body with not being able to breath being the only thing keeping me calm. Before I knew it I leaned over planing my hand on his cheek and kissed him. Everything that had happened before slipped away from my mind and suddenly everything was revolving around this moment.
