I sat on the couch with Harry in front of me not being able to make out anything he was saying to me. My head was spinning and my ears were ringing. I was trying to do everything I could not to pass out.
"Ellorie?" Harry said to me as I came back to reality hearing him say my name. I tried to speak seeing he wanted to too, but we were both speechless.
"I'm sorry." He said whispering staring at the floor.
For a second I had forgot everything that happened. Him saying that seamed so genuine, but everything started to come back to me. I started to look around the room. I stood up from the couch and tried not to start hyperventilating.
"I- I shouldn't be here." I said walking into the kitchen.
"El wait-"
"No. This is a mistake, just take me home." I said as I started to walk toward the door. I continued walking as Harry followed me and eventually stood in front of me. He stared at me for a moment before bringing his hand up to my face. I quickly pulled away and stepped back and started silently laughing.
"What?" He said seriously.
"Nothing."
"If you'd just sit down so we could talk maybe-"
"Maybe what? We could try to work something out? There's nothing to work out. We're not together and never will be. I'm not gonna be another one of those girls-" I stopped myself not realizing what I was saying.
"You're not. That was-"
"Don't say it was nothing because if I meant something to you, you wouldn't have done that."
"You do, it was a mistake I-" He stopped and took a deep breath.
I turned around and opened the door. I walked outside and stopped looking up at the sky. I noticed it was becoming darker. Harry walked up to me and stood next to me looking at the sky.
"It's getting late. You should stay here- I can leave I just-" He stopped as he noticed I turned around to look at him.
"I need to know this would mean more than what I saw." I said almost tearing up.
My heart stated to race as he walked toward me. My mind floated back and fourth trying not to be confused even though I knew I was. I didn't know what to say as he didn't reply. He took my hand and lead me back inside. He closed the door still holding my hand and dragged me into the living room. I sat down on the couch and he sat next to me.
I noticed him slightly licking his lips and I couldn't help myself. I leaned in to kiss him and he didn't hold back. He took over and eventually I was laying down on the couch. I stopped myself realizing what was happening.
I pulled away and put my hand on his chest.
"I can't." I said softly while looking down. Harry sat up nodding his head.
I tried to swallow seeing how hard it was noticing I was anxious. Harry sat next to me in silence for several minutes before getting up and walking out of the living room. I adjusted myself on the couch and pulled my phone out of my pocket. My lock screen was filled with texts from several group chats, but all I could see was Lia and Mae.
I unlocked my phone and started to read the texts before Harry came back.
"I uh- there's some blankets in that back bedroom. You can-" He stopped, brushing his hand through his hair. I could tell he was starting to blush, but I didn't say anything.
"You can sleep in that bedroom in the back. I mean whenever you want you don't- you don't have to now." He finished nodding his head and walking away.
"Where are you going."
"I'm gonna take a shower so if you need me- uh yea." He said walking away while running his hand through his hair again.
When he was gone I stood up and tried to make my way to the bedroom in the back. I slowly pushed a door open and saw a few blankets stacked on the end he of a full sized bed. I walked in and turned the light off hurrying over to the lamp to turn it on. I sat on the edge of the bed rubbing the sheets looking around the room.
I took my phone out of my pocket and went to put it on the night stand when I noticed a picture of Harry and two other girls. I sat my phone down and picked it up smiling. He looked much younger and I assumed the two women were his mother and sister. I sat it back down and rubbed my eyes before looking at the clock.
It was only 7:30 and I hadn't eaten all day. I got up and walked out of the bedroom. I made my way to the kitchen before stopping myself coming across another room. I looked inside and noticed it was a small bathroom so I went in and closed the door.
I stared at myself in the mirror and noticed how bad I looked. I quickly turned off the light and opened the door proceeding to the kitchen. It was dark and I couldn't find a light switch so I just moved over to the sink. I looked at the cabinets above starting to open them looking for a cup. I did this for several minutes before I was startled to the light turning on.
I jumped and turned around seeing Harry walk in. He didn't have a shirt on and was in grey joggers.
"Oh sorry I thought- I didn't see you on the couch so I though you'd just-"
"It's okay." I said softly faking a smile.
"Um do you have a cup?" I said breaking the silence.
"Yea." He said walking toward me. He came over to me and I stepped to the side as he reached up and grabbed a glass cup and handed it to me. I went to grab it and felt my hand in top of his. It sat there for several minutes as he didn't let go of the cup. I looked up at him seeing he was staring at me. I finally looked away and smiled and he let go of the cup.
I walked over to the refrigerator and got water out of the filter. I started to walk back to the room, but stopped myself turning around.
"Goodnight." I said to Harry.
"Goodnight." He said back smiling.
