WARNING: This chapter contains very mild self harm that may be triggering to some people
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I laid in bed against Harrys chest staring at the sky out of the window which was becoming lighter and lighter when eventually I sat up and started to kiss him. He started to move and groaned pushing me away.
"Good morning." I said smiling.
"Morning." Harry tried to say with a raspy voice.
"We're going to be late if we don't go now." I said getting up putting my bra and underwear back on.
I walked into Harrys closet finding the light switch and turning it on. I walked over to a shelf and grabbed a grey hoodie and slipped it on. As I was walking out Harry started to walk in not laying attention looking up thinking about what to wear. I walked straight to him and out my hand on his chest standing on my tippy toes to kiss him.
I walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen and grabbed and orange from the bowl in the middle of the table. I quickly pealed it and started to eat it when Harry walked into the kitchen. I put a slice of orange in his mouth as he reached over and grabbed his keys.
When we got in his car I sat in shock for a moment starting to smile realizing how I felt. I started to realize I didn't have any of my school things then remembered everything that happened yesterday. I asked Harry to bring me to my house and I went inside and laid down on my bed. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and decided to check Instagram. As I was scrolling through my feel I saw I had one notification. When I clicked on it I saw someone had commented on the last picture I posted which was about a month ago.
@jennmore_: hm wonder why you haven't been to school? didn't think someone like you would give into someone like that...
My heart started to beat harder and harder as I started to not be able to breath. I threw my phone done and sat up on my bed not being able to hold back my tears.
I sat like this for several hours letting it all hit me not thinking about anything else when I decided to walk into my bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror making myself feel worse when I opened the medicine cabinet and tried to understand what one of the labels on a bottle read.
I opened it and poured a handful into my hand. I looked down at them before going to get my phone. I had several texts from Harry, but didn't acknowledge them. I quickly went to my messages and typed I love you then sent it to Harry. I sat my phone back down and went back into my bathroom. I closed the door and grabbed the cup sitting on the counter I filled it with water then sat down on the floor.
I shoved the handful of pills in my mouth and forced it down with the glass of water. I sat in shock for a moment not being able to breath before I laid down on the floor and stared to cry before soon enough everything became blurry and I blacked out.
