Haruka gritted her teeth, as her hand shakily picked up the razor blade she had just dropped.
She couldn't hold herself. The urge is too strong.
The pain is too unbearable. If she cries, it somehow hurts her damaged eyes, making her sight even worse. If she scream, her sickness will start acting up again.
She can only stay with the old way. Blood is the only color she could recognize. Her world is now just consisted of black, white, grey, and red. She could imagine red when she saw her eyes, when she saw her scars and her cuts.
That red she hated so much. A reminder to her sin.
Haruka gulped, as she cut off the bandages around her right arm. She bit the blade between her teeth, as she slowly revealed her scarred arm, the one without the fresh cuts.
Kisame was out buying her new medicines, and another glasses for her. The old one was broken by Deidara.
She knows he won't be back for hours. As much as she hates breaking her promise, she couldn't stop. She's way too addicted.
She once again gripped the razor blade tightly, ignoring the blood that was now pouring out of her left hand.
Taking a deep breath, she start over.
Slash.
A small line of red was created. It soon opened, and dark red liquid seeped out of it.
Slash.
The thin line got longer, now the familiar dark red covered a small area of her wrist. Blood dripped down, staining the floor with red.
Slash.
A new line was born, again, seeping out red.
"Oi! Kisame! You left your kunai pouch here, un!"
Slash.
Haruka smiled softly at the third red line, unaware of the chaos outside her room.
"Oi! Shark fucker! Where the hell are you! Seriously, all these fucking books are taking all the space on the fucking couch!"
Slash.
A tear finally fell from her eyes. A certain Uchiha name left her mouth as a faint whisper, followed by the word 'Akari' and 'Ryuu'
"... You're right, Shisui. Our clan is destined to suffer." She whispered, as another tear fell.
Slash.
He body stars shaking, as silent sobs escaped from her pale lips, followed by coughs and again, blood.
Slash.
On that, in sync, the door was slammed open.
"Kisame, un! You-..." Deidara stopped in his midsentence. Hidan froze on the doorway. Their eyes widened in shock.
What seemed to be an impossible sight was right in front of them.
Haruka.
The cold, evil, cruel, heartless Haruka Uchiha.
Crying, trembling, coughing up blood.
Cutting herself.
"What the fuck....?" Hidan managed to mutter.
Deidara's face scrunched up in disgust.
Haruka didn't react. She tightened her grip on the blade, but she froze in her position.
"You really are a psychotic bitch, un. Look at you. Getting your arms bleeding like that, cutting yourself. What a freak, a monster. Trying to escape the reality, yeah?"
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What I've Done
Fanfiction"Look at what I've done. I destroyed my family, I killed my clan, and my brothers hate me." After she murdered her whole clan, Haruka Uchiha left her village and joined a criminal organization. She already lost her friends, she had to betray her bro...
