Not What You Expect

Chapter Eleven

As I'm Watching Val's retreating figure I pout. Placing my fork down "momma may I be excused?" I stand without being given permission and start walking towards my room. The guys and Kiley look at me with confusion and other emotions I can't read. Ignoring them I enter my room, which is now dark. "val?.." I whisper but she says nothing in return.

Getting onto my bed I crawl to where her figure lays and poke her "val... Please? What's wrong?" She shrugs and growling "nothing." I shake my head "no, val something's wrong now tell me what's wrong." She grumbles and rolls over placing her head in the pillow mumbling.

"I----whanua--weahue--." My eyes widen and tears threaten to fall my throat burns and I feel my lips tremble "you want to leave me?!.... I... I thought we were friends?" Hot tears fall gliding down my cheeks falling onto my chest... I quickly get off the bed and go for the door "wait!! Raine that's?!" I didn't hear the rest as I zipped past everyone and out the front door.

'I knew it was to good to be true... she doesn't want me to be here friend I'm just a little pest, a brat.... Not someone a princess could or would want as a friend.. Someone who's scarred from there past... I'm not needed here or anywhere.'

Looking around I notice I'm in the field where my parents stones are and I feel my body shake "I'm worthless couldn't save y'all , and now not even lovable! Whats wrong with me!!!" Tears soak my chest as I Look up to the sky, I see the Moon high and bright 'how lonely it must feel to have to watch from above, to never be free to do what others do... To never be loved... Always watching people sleep or loved ones have holidays... To watch couples be together and do what they do... Watching is all the moon does all it ever does.. Stars to far away to keep it company... How lonely it must be... How lonely it is for me and I'm here bellow that moon where I should have what it doesn't, but I don't.'

Looking back at the graves my chest aches. "I should be lying next to y'all or in y'alls place." searching the ground for something I see a rock on the ground..
'Thus should do' Picking it up I feel sharp edges and I face those edges to my wrist and keeping my eyes on it I slice my wrist one.. Two.... Three... I lose my count after ten... Watching the blood ooze and spill out of my arms I pull my shirt from over my head and slide down my pants and shift into my wolf..

Looking at my legs I see new silver streaks in my fur, and growl at how they are brighter than the rest 'no matter how hard I try it never works'.

Looking at the graves in front of me I lift my head and howl a pain filled howl. Nobody needs me and I should just do them a favor. Racing further into the woods and panting hard I keep running as tears slip down my wolfs cheeks and silver streaks appeared where they dried. I feel briers grab at my hind legs effectively shredding them, tree branches whack my face. Blood cakes my legs and face, I slide to a stop before I come to an edge of a cliff and I look down it. Whining I look to the other side and back down into the void. I hear the rustling of leaves behind me and I growl, quickly I back all the way up and race towards the edge as Tobi's dirty blonde wolf and Val's blackish red wolf appear.

My front feet touch the edge and then my back feet come to it. "Raine!!! Dont---" but its to late im already leapi g eaping forward and stretching my body full length, and as I feel the last of the ground with the push of my hind legs im no longer on the ground but close my eyes as I'm now in mid air. Wind picks up around me and it grapes at me ruffling my damp fur making the smell of my blood potent as the scent fills the air I open my eyes and see the other edge I hope to my feet land on, as I get closer I see that I've over jumped and I let out a startled cry as my shoulder comes in contact with the hard ground.

Slowly I stand and turn to face tobi and val shocked expressions on both their faces. I sit down and wince as I put weight on my injured leg, val shakes her head and I growl. Her eyes lock with mine and her lips part to say something, but tobi stops her to get her to put a shirt on and he turns to give her privacy and dresses too.

Looking around me waiting for them to get done I spot a bridge about thirty feet away from where I sit. Rolling my eyes 'I'm a fucking idiot' I trot to the bridge limping on my leg and cross the bridge to go back to val and tobi to see why they chased me when she clearly... Well as I heard her didn't want me with her.