Okay first off I want to start off with,
Middle School is like a train hitting you at full speed.
Some of your best friends turn out to not..be the best friends ever,
For me middle school is hell.
Yes, hell.
I'm bullied, and only have 2 people who honestly give me any kind of sympathy.
It's complicated.
But, when I was younger I always wanted to be the 'popular girl'.
But, now I definitely don't want to be the 'popular girl'.
Believe it or not, people know me as The suicidal with a cute face. But, I look in the mirror and see a girl who is just, absolutely terrifying to look at.
I hate what I've done to myself. Sometimes I won't eat. (Doesn't last long because I eat almost constantly) I usally skip a meal or two but not enough to starve myself.
My dreams, are almost like flashbacks.
Images of me cutting myself, and a bunch of times I'll commit suicide. It's like the monster in my head wants me dead.
But I don't want that...
