I've been asked may times; "How are you holding on?"
And I reply; "I'm doing okay"
Right now, I feel the happiest that I've felt in a while. My life took a turn for the worst about a month ago. Old habits aren't easy to break, but with all the support I've received over the time I started this book is pretty much what helped me.
Sometimes just sitting in your room thinking about it, will ruin you. I am speaking from past experiences. It sucks, it really does.
I swear I've thanked all of you so many times, but you guys saved me. It's really hard to believe that about 8 months ago, I was planning the way I would die. Now though, I think of how stupid I was then.
Hell, I'm only 13. Why would I ever be that stupid? I mean I used to think dying was the only way that I would become fixed, but now I realize that having people stay by my side all through this was all I really needed.
I believe that this pain I feel, will soon vanish. I'm still fighting, but guess what? I feel confident that I won't go back down that path again.
I was never looking for attention,but I was looking out for a friend. Someone who would make me smile when the people around me couldn't, and I found her.
With her crazy humor and my good listening abilities, I think we make on pretty damn good team. Thanks Dua, For saving me.
I want to also make this a message for anyone going through depression. Don't ever think that your all alone, because there is always someone right around the corner. I once though that I was in fact, all alone, but I learned I was never alone. Your family cares, your friends care, and I care. I care about you because I went through it, and nobody should have to experience this. I want you to live a long happy life, just like I will.
I love you ♡
-Emma
