Chapter 18
-Your Point of View
I woke up in a bright room to a throbbing pain in my left arm. I looked down at it to see it completely wrapped up with blood stained through the bandage. "Shit," I whispered. It was worse than I thought. I wondered where Justin was. Maybe getting food or something, he wouldn't leave me, right? "Ah, I see you're finally awake." The doctor said walking in. "Yeah, I just woke up." I said trying to stretch but my arm hurt too much. "You cut your arm pretty bad. It went through three layers, worse than I've ever seen." He said sitting on the edge of my bed. "I didn't really mean to do it that bad, I just needed to release the pain inside." I whispered. "Do you do this often?" He asked. worried. "A few times. Sometimes its worse." I murmured. "Well, you're lucky that man saved you. You lost so much blood we had to give you a transfusion. You were close to loosing your life. That's why I highly suggest you see someone, a specialist, to help deal with your struggles. I can't let you out of here until you agree to go because you are a harm to yourself. So think about it. I'll be back in a few hours to check on you, and if you need anything just press the red button." He said pointing to the red button. "Okay, thanks. But just one question, wheres Justin?" I asked.
"Who?" He asked confused. "The man that brought me in last night.." I answered. "Oh. The nurses informed me he sat in the waiting room for about an hour than left and never came back. He was gone before you were even done the transfusion." He said before leaving. What?! So he left me, just like in the beginning, alone. Great. I grabbed my phone from the side table. Not even a missed call or message. I logged onto twitter, he always tweets what he's thinking. He had 3 recent tweets.
12/14/12 9:58 pm
i left u because i love u, its for the best. dont forget me.
12/14/12 10:01 pm
it was my fault dont judge her. RT"*Picture A Pap Snapped of Justin Carrying *YN* to the car with his shirt tied around her wrist* Justins new girlfriend tries suicide?! Good choice, Bieber."
12/15/12 11:52 am
leaving philly to start tour back up again. it was great meetin u all, some very special 2 me. love u
He really thought this was his fault?! Little does he know I've been dealing with this for years. I can't believe he was leaving me. I'll be alone again. Can't...Believe...everything went black again and my phone dropped on the red button.
