Chapter 34
-Your Point of View
I woke up in a room with bright lights, much like I had experienced a little over a month ago. It was different this time. I wasn't in pain or anything. My mind instantly thought of Justin and I suddenly had infinite questions. Where was he? Was he okay? Was he possibly dead? I started to sweat. It was all my fault. It's always my fault. Why. I screamed at the top of my lungs hoping to get out of this nightmare. Within seconds 3 doctors rushed in with so many questions. What's wrong? Where does it hurt? When did you wake up? "wheres Justin!" I screamed at all of them. They just looked at me blankly. "Where the fuck is he! And why am I here! I am not even hurt!" I screamed again. "The blonde boy? He-" The doctor stopped talking and looked at the other one looking for an answer. "Is he dead? Gone? And it's all my fault. Can you please just kill me now? Because if you don't I sure as hell will." I yelled, tears overflowing my eyes. "No, no dear, he is .... okay. He is in the room next door sleeping." The third doctor reassured. I felt a though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. "Great," I murmured, and with that I ripped out my dumbass IV, stepped out of the bed, and walked next door. The doctors just stared in amazement, not daring to stop me. I had blood stains all over my clothes, what the fuck.
I stepped into the next room and his eyes flicked open. "*yn*," Justin whispered. My tears suddenly became a waterfall. He looked so weak, so broken. His arm was in a big white bandage with a big spot of blood leaking through. He had been shot. It hurt me to look at it, that should've been me. I ran over to his bedside and he intertwined his fingers in my hair. "I'm so sorry...you should've never came to got me...it's all my fault...yo-" He put his fingers to my lips stopping me. "You did nothing, it was my choice to come get you and I'm glad I did, they would've killed you for sure. *yn* please don't take blame for this. I should've just told you I didn't want to talk to Selena. I knew in the back of my mind she's a crazy bitch and this would've happened. I am so sorry *yn*. I should've chased after you and none of this would've happened. I'm so sorry." he whispered. I was crying more than ever now. "I can't believe I overreacted so much. I'm so dumb. I deserve to be dead. Look at you. What are your beliebers gonna think?! What about Scooter, your mom?! This can only look bad." I cried.
"You know what, I don't even care what they think. They will think what they will think, and I can't stop that. But all I know is I'm proud of what I did, I saved the love of my life and I'd do it any day." "You..you took a bullet for me. I love you." I whispered kissing his lips. "So you're not mad at me?" he whispered in an innocent voice. "Not at all, I know Selena forced that..that kiss. It hurt, but it wasn't your fault. How are you feeling?" I asked. "Eh, it hurts a little. They have me on a bunch of pain meds so it's not that bad-for now. They said it could be overnight until they let me go." He said "Don't worry, I'll be here the entire time" I smiled reassuringly. "*yn*, I love you." He said staring into my eyes, almost as if it was into my soul. "I love you too, Justin, are you hungry? I'm starving" I said. "Yeah, can you get me a ham and cheese sandwich? I think Kenny and Fredo are down there, take the money from my wallet." He said pointing to his personal belonging bag on the other side of the room. "It's fine, I'll pay" I smiled before walking out of the room down to the cafe.
"*yn*!" Kenny said waving me down. I walked over to him. "How are you doing?" He asked looking me over. "I'm fine, honestly. I took my IV out all by myself and went to Justin haha." I laughed. "Woah, we got a badass over here" Fredo yelled. "Shutup, I'm getting food, wanna get some and go back to the room with me? He's awake now." I asked both of them. "Nah, we're about to get going. We've been with him all day and we're tired now. Stay with him, I know you'll keep him safe." Kenny assured. "Alright, see you tomorrow!" I said waving bye. I ordered the food, got some drinks and took it back to the room. "Finally, it seemed like you were gone hours. I missed you."Justin smiled. "Sorry, the line was so long. I saw Kenny and Fredo, they're going home to get some sleep." I answered pulling a chair next to his bed and giving him his sandwich. "Ahh, so it's just you and me, all night? Nice" He winked. "Yeah, and the nurses and shit" I laughed and he did too. He bit into his sandwich. "I wrote you a song, when you left. The night I stayed up all night worrying about you." He whispered. A shock of guilt washed over me."Can I hear it?" I whispered.
He grabbed my hand and started to sing. "Lately I've been thinkin', thinkin' bout what we had. I know it's hard it was all that we knew. Have you been drinkin'? To take all the pain away, I wish that I could give you what you deserve" I started to tear up at his angelic voice. "Cause nothing could ever, ever replace you. Nothing could make me feel like you do..You know there's no one I can relate to, and no we won't find a love that's so true. There's nothing like us, nothing like you and me, together through the storm.." He finished looking in my eyes. "I know it's not perfect but I love you, and I'm sorry, but there's nothing like us. I don't ever want to fight again. I'm in love with you *yn*" he smiled with tears in his eyes. I stood up and hugged him. That's all I could do. "I love you so much" I said hugging him tighter. And in that moment everything was perfect.
