Chapter 38
-your POV
I got out of the car slamming the door looking up at the gigantic house. "Damn Justin I never realized it was so big," I said starstruck. "That what she said," Justin whispered from behind into my ear then suddenly picking me up bridal style causing me to gasp. "But Justin, your arm!" I yelled laughing. "Eh, my arm is fiiine, calm down babe." He reassured. "Whatever you say.." I smiled as he kicked open the door with his foot, still having a strong grip on me. He threw me down on the couch making me bounce a little and sat next to my head playing with my hair. "What do ya wanna do today beautiful? We can do anything, you pick." He said softly, leaning down to kiss my forehead then returning to play with my hair. "Hmm...I have an idea." I said a little teasingly sitting up into his lap. I wanted him so bad, he was my hero and I had to repay him, right? I cupped his face with my hands on either side and leaned into a passionate kiss. He put his hands on my waist rubbing up and down my sides slowly while silently begging for entrance into my mouth. I kept my lips closed tightly when he got a little frustrated. "Babe..." He groaned. I still fought, teasing with my lips closed while he traced them with his tongue. "C'mon.." He whispered into my lips before tickling me, finding my weakness. My mouth immediately opened and he got what he wanted.
His tongue slid into my mouth slowly and I repositioned, straddling him now. We had a tongue war and of course he won like always, grinning into it. When he moved his hands down to my butt and squeezed, thinks got a little more heated. He separated the kiss and pulled back smiling. "I want you so bad right now.." I whispered , gazing into his beautiful eyes. He took this as an okay to pull off my top and continue. He began placing kisses all over my neck. "I" *kiss* "Want" *kiss* "You" *kiss* "Too" *kiss* "Baby" *kiss* "You" *kiss* "Are" *kiss* "So" *kiss* "Beautiful" *kiss* and he continued placing kisses all over my neck and chest until he got above my breast. He stopped there, not moving his lips but bringing his eyes up to meet mine, as if asking if it was okay. I nodded, and he took off my bra throwing it on the floor. I started buckling my hips slowly over his crotch, making him groan lightly as he cupped my breast in his hand and sucked on it like a bottle, making me moan a little. After he did each breast he brought his face up to mine again, kissing all around it making me giggle.
"I want every inch of you," He whispered into my lips before barging into them, not even asking for entrance. This time we both moaned into it, and I continued buckling my hips over his crotch a little faster, feeling his bulge getting bigger and harder. "I love you baby." He whispered backing away. "I love you too," I smiled. I pulled his shirt off and just stared at his perfect chiseled chest and abs. Just like he did for me, I placed kisses all the way down in a straight line, and when I got to the bottom I looked up into his eyes. All he did was raise a brow as if to say it was up to me. I began to un do the button he grabbed my wrist, forcing me to look at him. "Are you sure?" He said looking into my eyes. I just nodded and continued what I was doing. Once I took his pants off I just stood there wondering what to do. I felt dumb, I've never really done this before. "Um.." I whispered. "It's fine baby, I'll teach you." He smiled knowingly.
He stood up and picked me up bridal style once again, leaving the discarded clothes on the living room floor. "Can't take a chance of paps catching us." He winked kissing my forehead as we entered his bedroom. He threw me softly on the bed and hovered over me. Next thing I knew he was pulling down my shorts, throwing them aside and lightly grinding on me, driving me over the edge. "Mmm..babe.." I moaned into his chest. I grabbed onto his shoulders and flipped him over, him doing most of the work because he was too strong for me. I grounded him harder than last time, making him groan really loud. "Do you like that?" I winked trying to be sexy, leaning down to place kisses on his face and neck. "I love it babe, but I'm in charge of this show." He winked with a little laugh before flipping me back onto my back.
He leaned down and started to place open mouthed kisses over my sensitive area on top of my blue panties, and it all came back to me.
----------"Austin roughly grabbed my thighs separating them. No. not this. Please. No. he moved his face in between my legs. Placing open mouth kisses over my sensitive area over my pink lace panties. He hooked his fingers into the waistband of my panties and pulled them down"----
no... i started panicking. but Justin took my heavy breathing as a sign to continue. kissing my thighs now.
---“Austin! Please! No! Dont!” I begged, sobbing. I couldn't stop the tears. I was petrified."-----
It was all coming back to me now.
-----"He positioned himself and painfully thrusted into me."--------
"No, Justin, stop." I cried, tears filling my eyes. I felt dumb but I just wasn't ready yet. It was like I was in a nightmare. Justin's head shot up immediately, his eyebrows furrowing together. "What baby, did I hurt you?" He asked, quickly backing away when he saw I was crying. "No..it's just..." I choked out, trying not to upset him. " Tell me.." He whispered, now sitting next to me and grabbing my hand in his. "I'm..I'm just not ready.. please don't hate me.. i had a flashback... I.. just.. can't yet..." I stuttered slowly, crying even more. "Aw, babe, I'm not mad at you, I could never hate you, you're my life and I understand if you don't want to, you don't have to be upset it's okay." He reassured wrapping his arms around me. We sat like that for a while, not talking, my low cries the only sound in the room. "I love you *yn*, I really do. And if you want to wait I respect that, we can wait as long as you want." He said breaking the silence, cupping my face in his hands and kissing my forehead. "Thanks, it means a lot. Really, I'm lucky to have you." I smiled, wiping the last of my tears. "You're so cute" He laughed. "We'll you're cuter." I said tapping his nose and standing up to get some fresh clothes.
