Paradise (Newt X Reader Book 5)

- Running -

Minho went to bed after an hour of running but i didn't. I stayed out in the darkness running around the same square over and over again. So many things are going through my head...

What is Newt's deal? What have i done (apart from breaking Georgia's hand) to him that could make him say that? I don't understand. In the maze when he first looked at me he said there was something about me. I'm still that girl he met that day in the maze aren't i? Yeah i am. I love him. God dammit i love him so much. I'm pissed at him but my god i love him. I can't help but love him. The first time i saw him i knew i loved him. I was meant to be with Newt. But what if he wasn't meant to be with me. No shake that thought out of your head. Minho, oh god Minho. He such an amazing guy and i love him so much, but im not in love with him. I'm in love with Newt. What the hell is Thomas' problem, he hasn't spoken to me since we got here. Oh of course he's too loved up with Brenda. Dammit why can't Newt be like Thomas. Atticus. Atticus. Atticus. If i end up going back to paradise will he come with me? If he wont then will i stay here? Yeah i think i'll stay with him. I lost him once, i don't really want to lose him again. I'll go wherever he goes and pray Newt comes with me. And Minho. I've still got the pain in my neck to worry about and why my tattoo sunk into mine, thomas and Newt's skin. Argh i bet that comes back soon, i can just feel it happening. Wicked. They are gone though...thats one thing i don't have to worry about right? Yes, they are destroyed and gone and yeah. There are no cranks here either. I'm safe. I'm Safe. Im safe. What is going to happen now? Do we stay here for the rest of our lives? What's the deal with the rest of the world? Is America even still a thing? Staying here for the rest of my life is not an option for me. But i wont bring that up to anyone yet.

I stopped running when the bright sun hit my eyes. I had been running for almost 9 hours!"You've been out here running all night?" Atticus said as i collapsed on the ground, i wasn't fainting or anything, my legs were tired and cramping. "I didn't realize" I said barely able to keep my eyes open, i was exhausted. "Come on lets get you to bed" Atticus carried me back to my tent which was now the Library tent. 

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shorter chapter, basically a running monologue of what's going on inside the readers head. More action stuff to come!

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